The Truth about me

2010-07-27T09:09:00.001-07:00

i wont be updating until im free..so toodles yaw

2010-06-09T09:28:00.001-07:00

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, somewhere there's someone who finds your presence worthwhile, so when you are lonely, sad and blue, remember there is someone, somewhere thinking of you

2010-06-09T09:21:00.000-07:00

To my dearest bby gal n her bf..
hope u guys get well soon..
love u both =)

2010-06-06T09:53:00.000-07:00

After so long we finally get to meet up..=)

2010-06-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

Sat i had fun with my dance mate..we went exploring with lorry..
Sap was the driver..
As always we had a blast of time together..
im enjoying every single moment of it..=)

before that i meet up with my bby gals mas n huda..
im so missing them..
though it was a short meet up..
we love every moment of it...

2010-06-06T08:50:00.000-07:00

This post is actually for my bbygal Mas..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!
wohoo..
i always love her no matter what..
no matter where i am..
im proud of her for achieving good grades and managed to get to UnI..
=)

2010-06-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep people out - they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your life drawing lines, or, you can live your life crossing them. But, there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know. If you are willing to take the chance, the view from the other side is spectacular.

2010-05-25T18:51:00.000-07:00

Now im stuck in school which is so mundane..
Past few wks was hectic and suckish for me..
Sometinmes at certain point of my life i just felt like giving up life.
Not wanting to move on at all..

Whats the use of living if i have to face all this shit n craps again and again..
How long can i be patients with all this crap that is happening..
im not a robot..
i have feelings..
For sure one day i will just break down

FUCK LIFE FUCK LIFE FUCK LIFE FUCK LIFE!!!!!!!!

2010-05-17T09:39:00.001-07:00

Bf was being so disappointing just now and i hate it.
Just after spending time together happily, we always parted with rage..
sucks.

2010-05-17T09:32:00.000-07:00

Everytime i say i love u..
Im trying to say so much more than those three little words..
im trying to say that u mean more to me than anyone else in the world..
Im trying to let u know that i adore you and that i cherish the time that we spend together...
im trying to explain that i want u and that i need u.i get lost in wonderful thoughts,everytime i think about u..
and each time i whisper "i love u", im trying to remind u that ure the best thing ever that has happened to me..

2010-05-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

i have just watch this movie today..
needless to say it was a great movie..
The plot was interesting..
i love this movie so u guys should catch it ok..

2010-05-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

Something happens when you look at me, I forget to speak, something happens when you kiss my mouth, my knees get so weak.. could it be true this is what god has meant for me, cause baby I cant believe something like you.. could happen to me.

this is for my bby boy..
though we always fight like theres no tomorrow.
but deep inside our hearts we love each other..
forever n ever..i love u

2010-05-16T09:57:00.001-07:00

Finally i love the shoes that i get frm online..
it suits my style..
i was already pissed off when one of the shoes i ordered is the wrong size..
i have to wait till like june to get it exchange..
oh bother..

finally my CA is over..execpt for tourism..
which will drive me insane as it is all thoery basis..argghh!!

next im happy that fai dearest gets the job at my place..
yea finally i have someone who is close with me to be kecoh with at work..

tomorro is Monday and i hate monday..so random

2010-05-16T09:48:00.000-07:00

we had another blast outing on 7th May..
so of them are quiting uniqlo soon..im so gona miss them..
i love the old batch..
the newcomers are not really that fun and wacky..
hopefully we gona meet up soon..yea

plus plus..right now im so stress ..
my name is under the termination list fucked them..

2010-05-16T09:20:00.000-07:00

This movie is so fucking boring..
it is not worth the money to watch.
i hat kristen stewart character in this movie..
it sucks man..
honestly i hate this movie..
it doesnt make sense..
the plot is nonsense...
i can sleep through the movie..

2010-05-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

last thursday was a short meet up with helmi after two yrs we didnt see each other..
thankfully he didnt ride his bike or else im gonna be so in deep shit when jamal knows about it..

He drive his car..at least i have comfortable journey..
we went for lunch at lucky plaza..
after that we went to uniqlo..
i accompany him to do some shopping hehe...
after eating eating ice cream at ben and jerry we went home.

sat was my anniversary..
it was the most unpleasant and disastrous anniversary of 1 yr 5 mths..
too much too say here..
we both eventually breakup that night..
but patch things up on sun..
just a day i change my status and so many comment i received..haha...
im so glad i have wonderful friends like them to be concen about me..

we ended up celebrating our anniversary on sunday..

toodles people

2010-04-22T09:03:00.001-07:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

2010-04-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

CCA ROADSHOW

It was very embarassing and humiliating to me..As a senior in my dance crew i should have not make a mistakes during performannce.
However i did, it was sucks..
i just could not get over it..
im so ego sometimes u know..aargh..
so shameful infront of the juniors and i make mistakes..tsk tsk..
i must improve and get over this crappy feelings.

Just now during SnW lessons was great..
My class has a friendly match with jan intake class..
in the end we fight..
damn those bar girl!!
i shall not elaborate cos i dun think it worth telling to fight with a low class bitches..
but the moral of the story is my class are bonded that is the favourite part.

2010-04-22T08:53:00.000-07:00

i forget to mention that my dearest bbygals bought for me souvenier when they went overseas..
nadia bby bought for me a simple and nice white dress with a cute flower pink hairband.it is frm bali..

sheaha dear bought for me lipgloss,babyphat socks and a packet of chocolate peanut butter..somehow the chocolate pics was not included as i have eaten them already..hehe..she went to New York..gerek peh..

2010-04-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

A minute is eternity
when your not by my side
i seem to have no remedy
to cure this love of mine
ever since your face i saw
i couldn't think of another
it was like an addictive drug
it feeling like nothing other
Its this incredible passion
that grows and grows each day
that makes my heart skip its beats
that makes me wanna scream to you
that i need you here close to me
i hope this poem somehow touches you
and makes you understand that i
wanna be your one and only
the one that always there
and will never make you cry

2010-04-20T19:50:00.003-07:00

love means always saying your sorry. nobody will ever be perfect enough to never make mistakes. the is why love cannot possibly be never having to say your sorry unless you only love yourself. If you really love somebody it should mean always saying your sorry yet knowing that you never have to.

Love is like a real kiss. A real kiss is like coming home. you know that there, in that one place, you will always belong.

Love doesn’t always end the way we want it to. But it always ends the way it is supposed to. If one love is lost, it only means that another one, sometimes better…sometimes not, but always, another love is waiting for you just around the corner.

2010-04-13T19:30:00.000-07:00

To bf dear

Though we always fight,unhappy and exchanging words that pierced our hearts..
we both know that we dont mean it in our words..
Several attempts of breakups but we still make up after that..
As u know that we need each other..
we both cant be part and we know whatever happens we will stay strong to endure all this..

Most importantly i love u so much..
Deep down inside me only u will be placed in my heart..
hugs and kisses

2010-04-13T19:13:00.000-07:00

Morning earthlings!!!

here i am in school..itz the third day of school..
i dun feel like going to school at all..
The happy part is i get into tourism class
which was very suprisingly...

my classmates ar great..
sadly,shaz was not in the same class with us..
but fai n yam was in the same class with me as well with my other cliques...

the teachers are great n they are not really that mundane..

yesterday was not a pleasant day for me..
i heated arguments with my bf..
eventually, we almost break up..
but then we didnt..cos we cant bear too..haha..
we just couldnt be part from each other..\
cos i love him and he love me sooooo....

anyway i have nothing else to say..
it is just that im excited abot my performance tomorrow for CCA roadshow..
thats all..

2010-04-07T06:07:00.000-07:00

I hate this life
like y am i born in this world if i have to suffer.
Y must my fate b this way?
Who else must i talk too?
who else wanna listen to me?

the word ''Happy family" doesnt exist in my dictionary.
It didnt n will never be.
Fuck them fuck them.

I just want all of this to stop.
N get out frm that hse.
When e fuck i will be 21yr old??

Enough itz enough.
Damn nw ma face is swollen
fuck him.

2010-04-04T10:07:00.000-07:00

here i am again..
Let me start with this meaningful phrase which is one of my fav's

"You have to laugh at yourself, because if you didn't, you'd cry your eyes out."

Somehow i find this is rather true..
u just have to keep urself occupy n making urself happy n feel good...
this week was not a very good week for me...

i heated arguments with my parents..
it was somehow like world war 3..
i hate it when they started to open their mouth n forget to shut them..
then they will continue blabbering non - stop , 24/7..
without feeling tired with what they say...

then all those hurtful words will come out from angel mouth..
i feel frustrated when i heard them...
i started to be mad at myself..
keeping all the emotional pain to myself..
without leeting it out..
until i couldnt take it anymore and i vent it out on my bf..

how bad can i be?
nevertheless..im immune to it..
For this fateful 19 years of my life..
i am so immune to what they say and do..

things will not stop.
it remains , continue and getting worser..

sometimes at this point of my life i hate them..

i hate them for not being encouraging, supporting and understanding..

they just dun get it cos they think they know what is good for us...

damn right..

whatever..

it is typical conservative thinking..

sigh..

lets drop this issue...

so last wed i meet up with raudha had a good chat n meet up with her..
unfortunately i couldnt go club with her..
she know what i means...
so day was spent well with e one i love and i like..
with bf,raudha and my dance mate...

n yar fai i miss u so..hahah...
tk igt ke kiter ader date...

im so excited abt e dance delight finals..
i am so going to buy the tickets and watch it with bf..
anybody wanna join us???

step up 3 is coming in 3D how cool was that..
cant wait, cant wait..
it is gonna be "BOOMZ" show (follow what ris low say haha)

finally my sis party is coming..
hell yea we gonna have lots of fun with bunch of kecoh people...

oh yar, forget to mention..
27/3

i went out with bby and his FORUM friends..
it was fun going out with them..
though i didnt know most of them..
i this what thrills me th most is when the whole group of big bikes gets together and make some noise..

it is like"wohooo""

i like..
bby this friends are better than ur irritating bunch of monkeys..

toodles

2010-03-29T09:26:00.000-07:00

airport hangout with my sis n her fren.

2010-03-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

alyssa bdae pic

2010-03-29T09:21:00.000-07:00

i love this pics so much..
my bf love it the most..

so random..

2010-03-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

im stress and tired.sigh

2010-03-26T09:31:00.000-07:00

today i mit mas bby after dance..
we had a long chat updating ourselves..
i mish her so much..
it was great to spend time with each other since we all are busy with our own things..
huda also came to join us later...
though it was short meetup..
but still i enjoy every single moment of it..
i love her a lotzz..mwahh
oh yar i cnt wait for my sec school anniversary dinner..
wohoo...

n my bf was being iritating today..
i ask him to meet me..
but in the end he was asleep..
yet he could still meet up with his friends..
he totally pissed me off..
he say he missed me..
but never meet me..
bullshit!!!!

i dun feel like going to JB with him tomorrow...
i cant be bothered to spend time with him on my weekends..

2010-03-26T09:05:00.000-07:00

Finally im back frm camp..
at last i have my comfy bed back..
i miss my bed so much..

Camp was so much fun and enjoyable..
When the people ard u makes it interesting for u...
i was quite dissapointed when there is no high elements n kayaking expedition..
4 days 3 nights was enjoyable witn ma group "YOSHI"
new friend found
new experiences
New skills...

but one thing for sure which i hated most is i have become dark..
BENCI!!!
n yah..
theres a lot of things i witness throughout this camp..
i know itz kinda lame but it is my first time witnessing it..

example
i saw a cat who prey on birds..
the cat just dug its claws on the baby bird n bite it..
it was fast and skillfull..
i was helpless as i could not do anything to stop it...
poor baby bird...

then i witness the beauty of nature at pulau ubin

and i witness NEA asking this homeless family to move out..
Eventually i sympathise them as they still have their parents who is ageing and younger children to take care of..

i learn how to make campfire..'
so i shall make use of this skills when i want to organise camp..

2010-03-21T10:24:00.000-07:00

itz 1 am now..
I have not yet sleeping..
i need to report to ite mchperson at 7 am..
omg..how am i supposed to wake up n endure myself for the whole day tomorrow..
and yes i havent packed my bag...

So say goodbye to u people..
i will be back on thurs 25..
do not forget to miss me okay...

toodles

2010-03-17T23:40:00.000-07:00

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

2010-03-17T23:33:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened for the past few days..
all i do is just work and work..
Now im so worry that i havent been confirmed for my job..
haish..

last sat i meet up with aminah and An..
had a blast that sat..
Sadly mas didnt join us..
hopefully the next meet up she will be there..
im am going for camp nxt week n i havent packed my stuff yet..
lol..

im so lazy..
b come here n help me pack okay..
love u..

2010-03-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e84qKA2BJhk

2010-03-17T23:18:00.000-07:00

2010-03-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you said
We could've made everything OK
But we just
Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Super natural love conquers all
Member we used to touch the sky

And lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Limitless omnipresent
Kind of love couldn’t have guessed
It would just up and disappear in
The whirlwind
Here I am walkin' on this narrow road
Wobbling but won't let go
Waitin' for a glimpse of the sun's glow
I know I can stand just pull me back up
Like there ain’t no hurricane
It’s just us
I'm willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine

Cause
Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it drift
In a storm
Now every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow our love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you
Hey I've gotta say

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love’s a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

2010-03-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

I love this quotes:

M. Scott Peck: Wonderful Life Quotes
The great awareness comes slowly, piece by piece. The path of spiritual growth is a path of lifelong learning. The experience of spiritual power is basically a joyful one.

2010-03-11T07:10:00.001-08:00

Nazi bdae..
After so long we didnt get to meet n hang out...
so celebrating birthday is the opportunity for us to get together n update abt our life..
Sadly most of them could not make it...
A wonderful evening n time with bunch of bpians...

2010-03-11T00:34:00.001-08:00

I Talent pics

2010-03-11T00:17:00.000-08:00

Finally exams has over..
now i can have my beauty sleep back and time to pamper myself with beauty products..
now what worries me is that the results for the examinations..
esp IAC n SVE..
Hopefully i could get A or B grade...

holiday is here and im sooooooo freeeeeeee..
Wohoo!!
Time to enjoy n enjoy..
im gonna work..
Going out with friends n so on...

on last tues i had actually observe behaviour of "TYPICAL SINGAPOREANS"
i was at fork n spoon with bf..
i just witness this group of working adults..
Fancy just put newspaper at the table to "CHOP"
n it was the whole lot of them each take TODAY copies n put on the table..
so typical..
They are working in the office environment..
But their behaviour is typical Ah soh..
Change people for goodness sake..

The best part is..
i saw a group who was sitted besides me..
simply threw a packet of tissue n reserve the place for their friends..
what the heck are they implying that singaporeans is "kIASU"
it is a bad image to pictured this to the tourists...

i want to watch movie "Dear John" badly with bf..
i think it should be romantic n sweet right..
bf if ure reading this please take me to the movie..thank u...

i cant wait for the I Talent Finals nxt monday n my class chalet...

2010-02-19T08:59:00.000-08:00

2010-02-19T08:33:00.000-08:00

"Friendship is like a precious flower
Ready to bloom every hour.
It may stop growing
or keep on flowing
But you'll still have it forever"

This dedicated to all my bby gals..they will know who they are..my special bbygals..

Between The Miles
by Heather Stoop
Because existence can become severe
in one day,
just sense me and I'll be there.
In the minds eye,
I'm not so far away.
If you hold out your hand,
in the whispers,
I'll become the zephyr.
and besiege you.
If your eye's upon the stars,
in the crystalline darkness,
I'll become the moon.
And the light shall guide you.
If you rest upon the ground,
in the warmth,
I'll become the grass.
And embrace you.
If you turn outside,
in the wetness,
I'll become the rain.
An upon your forehead, kiss you.
If you free the air,
in the light of day,
I'll become the sun.
And smile for you.

Between the miles-
if you need me.
If you need a friend.
Let me be the friend, I want to be..

2010-02-19T08:23:00.000-08:00

Today i received a pretty and cute balloon from nadia my sekeluarge...
it states " I LOVE U"..
I really love it as the handle is in pink..
which is my fav colour..
Isnt she sweet..
haha n best part is i know she love me..hehehe...

Dance session today was pretty tough..
We have to do a lot of cleaning up for our dance steps..
The sharpness and neatness..
So much things to do..
i swear i was so exhausted by the end of the day..
Luckily Mabel our dance instructor was there to guide us...
She also help to choreograph the introduction for our routines.

i love the steps...
itz nearly abt one week left to competition..
im so nervous but yet i felt excited..
its should be a tough comp..
We have to compete with the better ones..
but nvm experiences is what we need...

i really need some beauty therapy session to pamper myself...
i miss doing that...
hopefully i will when im free frm my hectic schedule...

2010-02-16T07:51:00.000-08:00

Somehow these thoughts just came by suddenly..
im afraid to go to year two..
not because of me flung my papers...
but because im afraid i will be separated frm the sekeluarge..
I love them soo muchh...

2010-02-16T07:33:00.000-08:00

hey people im back frm my holidays..
itz been a long weekends.
i felt exhausted after the trips..
i guess i gain a few kilos by eating too much...
Blame e food cos i could not resist the food over there...

i didnt manage to give my baby e valentine day card..
didnt even get to wish him..
i miss him a lot during the trip..
i miss everything about him..
n i could not wait to hug u....

not forgetting i also miss all my dearest baby gals too..

i will update soon abt my trip..
i want to sleep now..
good nite earthlings...

oh ya..

HAPPY BDAE ZAHRIN!!!!
have a wonderful 17 yr old..=)
cant wait to c u on e 21st...
itz gona be awesome...

2010-02-16T07:23:00.000-08:00

This blady stupid bitch got nothing better to do again and meddling with my blog..
OMG!!my blog must be so attractive to her...
it seems that my blog is no. 1 list for her..
Thanks ekh for viewing..
I didnt know that i got fans for my blog...

If im a bad person ur much more worse than me..
dun accuse others or simply just say something abt that person before u go and judge urself in the mirror..
do u think ur an angel???...

Im an ugly biatch??
hahaha...
i dun think so...
u kept saying that simply the main reasons is
ure jealous that im much more way too pretty than u..
it MYOB that i wanna self-proclaimed myself at my own blog..
Bcos u know what..
ITZ MY BLOG!!!..MY SAY!!!u dammit...
u doesnt have the right to judge my blog..

n oh ya..im not affected by whatever u say...=)

2010-02-10T09:09:00.000-08:00

To Fai love..
Thanks for the lovely valentine gift in advance..
i love u cyg..
Pictures will be updated...

2010-02-10T08:56:00.000-08:00

At the last minute i need to replace fai love for i talent..
luckily i know the dance step...
on the day of auditions..
i felt that i didnt really put any effort into the dancing..
i was in no mood..
mainly because of my parents..
They will always ruined my mood for the day...
n yeah i guess we really do sucks at the auditions for dance..

But suprisingly we got in for semi- finals..
we are really so unprepared...
3 weeks to go..
n i was feeling rather afraid to face the competition...
We have to compete with all those tops groups..
i just could not believe it..
i have always seen them in dance competition and now for the reality check..
i have to compete with them..
oh people please slap me!!
Tell me this was not real..
like im so demoralised...
itz is so stressful to face with dancers who is better than u..
though my group is not known to many people..but i know we are still the best at ite central..
RHYTHMIC SOULS FOREVER!!!

n i had a hectic schedule for february..
Apart frm the upcoming exams..
i had 3 events coming up..
23,27 n 28 performance..
This is driving me nuts...
hopefully i can endure all this n be strong...

CNY holidays coming up..
but im in no mood to go holiday with my family...
i am so reluctant to go after what my parents did..
so i rather work than follow them..

this week has been a very bad week for me..
i wish that someone could just pat my shoulder n say JIAO YOU!!!
My hp fell into the toilet bowl..
Thank goodness it was clean..
Or else i could not imagine myself picking up ma hp frm dirty toilet bowl..
So unglam...
next my hp spoilt of course...
n i lost most of the contact no.
im so frustrated with these..haish..

hope next day will be a better day for me..
im always dwn with luck...

2010-02-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

Well to those people who spam me..
Whatever okey..
say whatever u want..i dun give a damn..
like who the hell are u tell me that...
im cheap or whatever doesnt concern u..
ure just one blady bunch of idiotic people who got nothing to do snooping at people blog...
Well i would like to self proclaimed myself yes i am pretty..y?
u jealous issit?
cos ma bf say so..
my arm gt birthmark or not..
who cares..itz my arm n im so proud of it..
it makes me difference among the rest..
n my bf doesnt mind so who are u tell me that..
my bf love me as who i am..
so i dun give a shit or hurt by what u say..
go get a life lah asshole...
im sure ure much more worse than me"Sampah masyarakat!!!!"
so butts off yea!!!
Coward people always spam people blog..
If not happy meet me face to face...
no guts..but want to say abt people..
haish this people are just making me laugh..
they are like bunch of stopid pathetic people n a low class..
HAHAHAHAHa=)

2010-02-01T06:47:00.000-08:00

Beach fiesta

2010-01-31T08:47:00.000-08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO BOIFFEY..
love u no matter what...
i doesnt need to decsribe how much i love u..but im sure..
u will know..

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worth while.
So when you are lonely, remember it's true
Somebody somewhere is thinking of you.

2010-01-31T08:11:00.000-08:00

This week has been very unpleasant for me...
Thursday..blame me for being muddle headed..
i was late for my CA..
So i decided not to go school and take mc..
so hopefully i could sit for ma CA...

Friday was the best day ever i guess for this week..
My dance crew R.S won first place for DANCE TAMPTATION...
wohoo!!..when the judges was abt to announce the results..my heart was pumping like mad..
i was so happy that we won..futhermore itz our first competition...

sat was my BEACH FIESTA dance competition..
i was extremely nervous ..
i mean like there will be all the ite students and outsiders watching us..
The feeling of this nervousness..just making me mad..it was like killing me emotionally..
That is when my stomach gonna turns frenzy and i could not stay still...

well..though we did our best ...my group didnt win..
i was very dissapointing when we didnt even clinched the third place..i mean itz like ridiculous seii...
haish nvm..
at that point of time i feel like wanting to cry...
to make it worse those blady idiotics bunch of monkeys won first place..
i feel so defeated...
thos damn arrogant shit..
lagi2 that baapok..
if im so like minah..
For sure im going to take my shoes n shove it down his throat..Blady Shemale!!!
oh ya i forget..they are bunch of YP..that is y they behave so inmatured and unprofessional...
Worse still our songs n some dancesteps are the same..
ARRGH!!!

screw them!!!
just because they won first...
Anyway..i would like to thanks to those who come dwn to support me..
im so grateful that u guys came dwn..im sure u guys know who u are..
thanks for the encouragement...
To bby love mal..thanks for accompanying me..
Aminah syg for coming dwn n AN too..though both of u are late..hmph..ahha..
Raudha too..
To myles n saiful for coming dwn..
lastly the sekeluarge n many others..

love u guys so much..

After dance..i mit raudha for a while..
then spend my time with boiffey n aminah n her bf..
we had loads of fun..
i mean them ..
Cos i was their laughing stock throughout that day..haha...
after this i have a few weeks to relax frm dance..
thank god cos i badly need to rest..

pictures will be updated

2010-01-22T10:02:00.000-08:00

uniqlo karoke

2010-01-22T09:56:00.000-08:00

Uniqlo Lepak..
Zainul n iman last day

2010-01-22T09:51:00.003-08:00

To ma dearest love..
despite the fact that we always heated arguments over small little things..
u noe that i will always love u no matter what..
this tiny heart beats is only for u...

2010-01-22T09:31:00.000-08:00

2010-01-22T09:05:00.000-08:00

so here i am again..
always M.I.A

well..what can i do..im always packed with something until i do not have time to update..

Nowadays my schedule was quite hectic..
i have dance practises everyday..i have work..school..
the coming CA..
it is driving me nuts..
Sometimes when things just get a little too frenzy..
i would always have vexed feelings..

this past few weeks was not a fruitful weeks for me..
firstly, i failed my o level again..
how pathetic i am..
and my parents still being kept in the dark about this..

secondly, i always forget my dance steps..somehow i find it frustrating if i miss one or two steps..

thirdly,CA is coming..All my class tests i do not know how to do..i have not yet start to studying...

fourthly, i had the worse fight with my bf..i was like totally lose my cool..i think mainly because i was too exhausted and stress out..
i need someone to pampered me n care for me..
but my bf was dumb enough not to know that..
n yea..i cried at school because i fight with him..
Because i feel that he do not reallie understands me...

lastly..
i still havent print my materials for WFB 1000 words essay..
which means i could not start to do my draft before e real exams dates..haiyo..

hopefully nxt week will be a better week for me..
im prone to fallen ill nowadays...
what the hell is going to happen to me..

im facing with emotional stress..physical stress n so on...

my dance competition is only next week..
i felt that im still unprepared to face next week...
beach fiesta and dance tamptation..
hopefully by monday i will be better...

one thing that im happy about for this week is that my LPD STALL went smoothly..
my group managed to sell all our brownies,eclairs,custard n choc tarts..
we make profits even though it was not a huge sum..but still something to donate to the charity..three cheers to all ma gfs!!wohoo..we should pat ourselves at the back for our hard work..

Finally i get my FOX MOTORCROSS jacket..
Just the thing that i need when it comes to bad weather..
n yea..it is simple and nice jacket..im so loving it..,
Thanks boiffey for buying this for me...i love u so much..

bby bike breakdown..poor bby..im sure he felt miserable for not able to played track after he bought his suit..
dont worry love im sure after your bike is done with the repairing..
u will get to played okay..
n now we both cute couple have to ride with his company bike..
SO KENTAL..

2010-01-18T05:45:00.001-08:00

Currently busy....will be updating sooon.....

2009-12-23T08:14:00.000-08:00

i forgotten to write that finally itz have been 1 yr past with bby..
i hope our relationships will grow stronger as e day goes by..
our love will never fades and will always grows to make this relationships a happy ones...

I love u bby..
i will always do...

2009-12-23T07:57:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i just felt that life is like a flower..
when u didnt take care of them ..
nourish them...
giving them e nutrients they need..
they will just withered and died...

but when u care for them..
giving them love..
proper attention...
they just bloom and live....

2009-12-23T07:56:00.001-08:00

Never take life seriously
Nobody gets out alive anyway...

2009-12-23T05:31:00.000-08:00

finally i m free to use my lappy..

Today ma ddearest bbygal aminah went to KL gona mish her..
hope she will have a safe journey..

ystd after my cip at National musuem..
i went for dinner with yam..had a long chat with her for the first time..
now then i know she eats a lot sia..
Contradicting for someone who is small size like her..

It was the first time i went to national musuem though i lived in spore for like 18yrs..
im so amazed by the building designs..
impressives..

The interesting part is i learn so many things at the spore history gallery and the 4 living gallery..

im looking forward for my next cip..hopefully im going to enjay my time over there...

after that i meet up with nazi at her blk..
she bought me my bdae present which she shared with khai..
itz pretty sweet and sumting which i like too..

thanks a lot babes..ure the best..

though we both are bz in our own way..
we still rmb each other..
thatz y i love her so...

Today as usual i have dance practices..
im quite frustrated that i didnt get the steps for the few dance routines...
saiful as usual will always make us laugh by his silly jokes...
every dance session will always ended in a good way...

then i make my way to sheaha hse for my LPD project...
simple and short comments regards her hse..
itz nice and cosy..
i love her hse...
the most mundane thing abt today is i didnt meet my bby boi and the journey frm pasir ris to bkt pjg was such a dread....

2009-12-15T08:57:00.000-08:00

hello to blogger reader!!!

itz been quite sometimes i did not update my blog..
ya i know ma blog is kinda mundane for not actively updating my blog..
heres e pics which i have not been updated...
ya..i juz czme bck frm holidayiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggggg....
it was enjoyable and relaxing..for least my brains doesnt need to work and think a lot...

2009-12-09T06:44:00.000-08:00

I will not be updating the blog for sum time....

2009-12-09T06:32:00.001-08:00

Im feD up wiT lyfE..ColouR ma WorlD plEasE!!!

2009-11-15T05:09:00.000-08:00

Today my maid went back..
i felt sympathise for her..but yet at the same time i was mad at her..
if only her attitude is good my family will not be reluctant to take her..
but since she is blady rude and etc..
so hell to her..
i hope she repent n realise her mistakes..

i eat at popeye with my family..
it was a good spending quality of time together especially with ma dearest putri..
i cut my hair short itz ugly..
and i look like ugly duckling..
As my hair is damned spoilt ..i go no other choice but to cut it short..sob sob...

n after e maid is gone..
meaning im so dead..as i have to do e housework..argghhh!!!..its so annoying things to do...
i hope my hair grow longer quickly..n get a job quickly...

toodles earthlings..

My bDae

2009-11-15T04:15:00.000-08:00

So i proudly to announce that im 18 yrs old and im legal..hahah
baru nk naek pe...
so my bdae was full of suprises which i didnt expect..
Though it was a quick and short celebration..
but im so grateful and thankful to those who made my day..
Apart frm the wishes, they plan e suprises for me..
im so touch and im soooooooooooooo hhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaappppppppppppppyyyyyyy...
Words cant described how i felt at that point of time..

To my Fav gals at ITE:
NADIA,SHIKIN,SHAZANA,SHEAHA

Thanks a million for e suprises and the gifts..
though we onli know for a few mths but it felt like years knowing u guys..
hehe..n yesh im e kecoh queen..thatz y u guys love me rite..hehe..
i really appreciate e effort n that was e sweetest things ever u guys do for me..
nasib baek mkcik nanges..heheh..kalo tk banjir bishan..
n yesh e best part of it is i get my FAVOURITE WALLET..VICTORIA SECRECT with E DESIGNs LOVE PINK..
Thanks a lot..im sure this must be nad idea right to buy for me..thanks sweet..love u guys so much...

I LOVE THE SEKELUARGE MWAH!!!

To ma DEAREST BBYGALS:
AMINAH AND MAS...

my dearest gf..ouhk..plan sembunyi2 ngan mal..tk blang ako ekh..pandai ekh acting..
heres another suprises that they made for me..
Being so moody cos i thought nobody wants to celebrate my bdae..
so that sat i totally got no mood..
even bf bring me out doesnt cheer me up..except for the ice cream that he bought for me n chocolates..
Seriously speaking im like outdated..
As for this 18 yrs of mine i didnt even once get to try BEN and JERRY ice cream..
it was simply delicious..how pathetic i am right..
after that bf brought me to one of the far east restaurant...
n yesh i saw my bbygals...
u noe how happy n suprise i am...
we have our dinner together..and they were like trying to cover story with mal..hmmm...
but im happy..cos itz brings a smile to me...
after that we walk around at ION n chill at coffee beans..
i love the present n e doughnuts..
thanks dearest..
i love u guys..

TO MA DEAREST BF

even though i throw tantrum at u..
but ure still patients with me..n
and still makes an effort to make me happy...
i love u sooo much ..i know u that..
thanks for e suprises as will..
how luck am i to be with u...

n ya shafiq that ex of ine..gave me adidas pink watch..suprising..ut i appreciate it..
n yar good lack to mas dearest for her last A level paper...

pics with e sekeluarge will be updated

2009-11-08T17:10:00.000-08:00

It’s those eyes that make me smile
That voice that makes me melt
This overwhelming feeling I’m lost in
A feeling I've never felt

Can’t help but stare
At those beautiful eyes
Cant help but get
Those butterflies

Can’t help but thank you
For the things you do
Can’t help but smile
When you say I love you

Can’t help but kiss
Those nice pink lips
Can’t help but frown
When it’s you I miss

Can’t help but go crazy
Over you
These overwhelming feelings
Are oh so true

I would walk miles
Just to see your face
Would cross the whole wide world
Just to feel your embrace

I would go anywhere
Just to hear those words
I would do everything for you
Because you are my world

I have completely
Given you my all
I will be there
Whenever you may fall

I will be there
Through thick and thin
I will be there
To be you’re everything

So here’s my heart
I give to you
You have the key
Like I do

Please solemnly promise
to never break it apart
and that you will always have
the key to my heart...

2009-11-08T17:01:00.000-08:00

Today was raining drizzly for no reasons..
I think because suprisingly i came too school early..
I reach 30 mins earlier..
my classmates started teasing me saying that they should be buying TOTO after school as it was the first time im earlier than them..
haha..
new day must start a new change right..
I cant be possibly always late..
Anyhoots i must prove to dat irritating teacher that i can be better the rest...

My LPD lecturer didnt come..so here i am writing my blog..
I miss updating my blog..eversince i was busy with o level..

Now i got a lot to catch up for my subjects in ITE..
sometimes i felt like giving up..
As some of the topics i really do not understand..
I have to get really a good grades in order for me to have a place in POLY..

2009-11-08T05:26:00.000-08:00

greetings to the angel and e devils..
im back!!!...
So hurray for me..haha lame..
so o level exams was finally over..but not yet..i had one last paper to sit for...
im able to go out now with free mind..without too many things occupying my mind...
i will be bz with dance for showcase..
i hope it will be over soon..
eversince im in this showcase..
i feel that im much more closer to e other crewmates..
n im proud to be RHYTHMIC SOULZ..
i love them all..
n yar e best thing is that im goin to be 18yrs old soon..
wohoo..cnt wait..cnt wait..

n finally just now i was able to went out with ma bby boi..
i love him in every way..

n yesh i mish ma bby gals mas n aminah..hope to meet u soon...

2009-10-25T17:26:00.000-07:00

greetings to all earthlings!!
i know that my blog may be mundane nowadays..
I will update soon when i have finished my o level n school stuff..
Tc..

2009-09-23T01:11:00.001-07:00

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2009-09-22T21:19:00.000-07:00

i cant wait to start my new job at Starbucks..
Rather than sitting at home..with nothing to do other than studying..
at least i have money if i were..
Rather than now im broke..

Now i have been eyeing on shoes and jacket at Fox motorcross..
im so in love with them..
I have been wanting to get as that is e design that i want..
Arggh..Frustrating
until i get my hands on them than i would be at peace

every now and then..
i usually have difficulties in breathing and chest pains..
or maybe im suffering frm insomania..hahha..
i will wake up at 4 due to the pain then i could not sleep until 6 plus nearly 7 in the morning..
even though how many times i toss and turn i cant go back to sleep..
who else can i call right when im e only one who is wide awake..
so i just stared at the ceilings either talking to myself or just think about the things that i wana think..
What else can i do...

I think im stressed lately..haish

2009-09-22T21:15:00.000-07:00

First day of Hari Raya was not very pleasant..
While people are happily going out with their families..
i and my siblings are stuck at home with e stopid commotion..
i do not wanna elaborate much on this..which cause me unhappines..
what a luck for me..
i hate this yr hari raya...
i dun think i wana go out with friends or whoever for Hari Raya..

2009-09-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

Eve of raya..wasnot very pleasant and i wun elaborate much on it..
i followmy aunt to her in laws home..
We had our dinner there..
Then baby fetch me and we went straight to geylang with his friends..
standard lah kan every nite of hari raya where else to go..
itz pack with people who is doing last minute shopping..
and i came upon a fruit stall which i was disgusted with..
imagine a croackroach crawling on to of the fruits..
n people at the front still buying the fruits..so unsightly..
n my kerepok lekor finished already...hmph..no kerepok lekor...
n yar with all those mats n minahs who kept staring n some who kept blasting their bikes are sure to be irritating..
They just dun get it itz gona be Hari Raya the next day..
Stoopid dumbfounded people..
I reach home at 3 am in e morning..i was feeling quite lethargic..
Well at least by going out it sure do give me peace of mind...

2009-09-22T21:02:00.000-07:00

aminah bdae was not really that fruitful..
cos theres a lot of hiccups...
The plan didnt go the way it seems..
i was stuck in e blady traffic jam when im otw to visit her..
n Mas had to visit her grandpa..
uckily i had gf who is understandable..
For e least imanaged to see her n mas for a while..
we sat dwn n chat..
aft that i have to rush home cos i have to help my mum...

2009-09-22T20:28:00.000-07:00

Baby just change his bike to KTM which is his dream bike..
now im kinda feel a bit jealous as his love his bike more..
heheh...
His bike is much more gila...
when i ride his bike for the first time..my heart almost dropped dead..
it was superfast n scary lar oi..
damn hym for blasting his bike n make me scream like a mad woman on e bike..
anyways i know he loves me more than his bike and thats for sure...

2009-09-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

n ya i forget to mention..i also had gathering with all the helper of my aunt wedding..
n the food was so good n yummy...

2009-09-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

This post is for my dearest bby gal AMINAH..
though its a bit too soon..
I wana wish u a veri HAPPY 18TH BDAE DEAREST!!
A yr older n da legal age..Wohoo!!..
I love u soooooooo muchhhh..may u have a blissful yrs ahead...
see u tomorrow..mwah mwah

2009-09-17T06:06:00.000-07:00

alright itz been quite sometimes i didnt update my blog..
so heres basically a draft ones for e past events that has happened...

i went out with shafiq on sun to have buke with hym..with baby knowing abt this..cos i dun wana hide things frm bby.shafiq didnt change that much n hes quite irritating n kept talkin abt e past..yg sudah tu sudah gy lah crk nadia...

on the friday i went out with mas cyg n aminah cyg and some of the express students..
i mish them lotz..it was enjoyable.As we re enact our times during sec..
very kecoh..very lively..after that we went to sheesha n chill..

then following day i went to catch a movie with bby,my sis n ma aunt..
Fnal destination...
it was superd gruesome n scary..
The storyline was interesting..but the intricate details of how the people died really puke me out..my advise is not to eat after u watch e movie...

Monday during the teachers day..
well this is e first time im experiencing teachers day at ITE..
Let me tell u itz superb lame..
n i think e teachers doesnt enjoy it as well..
nice effort student leaders but not a good one..serious..itz lame n childish..derr..dun tell me u cannot think out of the box..
the best thing i can wear home clothes n meet ma sec school friends at ma sec school..
i meet cekgu for a while n yar ma new school was nice..the infrastructure was really good n spacious...

on the tuesday i.my sis n my aunt went to kimage to do our hair..i do hair treatment n it was simply feels so great n heavenly..it is good to pampered ur hair once in a while..though it was quite expensive but worth the money..
thanks my dearest aunt for paying it for me...

so finally my exams was over..
the last paper was on tuesday e 8th..
after the paper me n some of the gals n guys went to tong seng to break our fast together..
harris fai bf was there too..

last friday i meet up with my long time pri friends..
shockingly almost all of them turn up..so u could imagine how kecoh it was..
n yar someone was also there..but who cares right..step derk je lah..
so we just update abt our life..n ya most of them are not schooling as they have started working already..n one of them are getting married soon nxt yr..cant wait..

sat i went to my great grandmother place to have cousins gathering..
all e abgs2 n kakak2 was there..i was mad at baby cos he didnt follow me..
suprisingly..bby gt help oe of my abd sedare who fell at e expwat a small world..

n one week before hari raye..
i spent my time cleaning up e hse n making kueh..
itz e first time i do all e kueh by maself ..
itz kinda frenzy at first..but somehow i managed toget all things right...
hehe..all e kuehs are made by me..hehe...

though itz quite q boring chore..but i enjoyed it cos it was my own effort..
i cant wait for raye lol...
besh...

n ya i get a job at starbucks..which started only after the festival month...hurray...

2009-08-21T09:51:00.000-07:00

2009-08-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

this wk again i was late for school..
my percentage gona drop n im so dead...
i have been feeling lethargic lately..
n i just could not bring myself to wake up in e the morning...
wednesday i meet up with bro at mcd bpp..
had nice long chat n went home straight...

Friday i went for dance..
thank god i did not participate in teachers day performannce..
as im so lazy too to attend for the practises..
learn a few steps n had our meeting with ms lena..

im so stressed cos ma exam is nearing in two wks times..
i havent get started n also o level in two mths times...
n im afraid it might clashed with my practises for the upcoming DANCE EXPLOSIONS...

n ya
Selamat Berpuase Everyone!!...

im so excited for this day..
meaning i can slim dwn..hahahah...

2009-08-21T08:54:00.000-07:00

Baby bought this for me..sweet of him n i love hym so..

2009-08-16T23:23:00.001-07:00

Oh ya i forget to mention
last saturday i bump into that bitch n her bf..
what a day to bump into her..
like i say i still hold grudges...

n yar ma national day at school was so suckish n lame..
the oonly activities was playing kite..lame oh lame..
right now im listing all the things i wana buy..and itz must buy one...
i need to shop craze right now...

2009-08-16T23:23:00.000-07:00

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Im feD up wiT lyfE..ColouR ma WorlD plEasE!!!

2009-08-16T04:05:00.000-07:00

tuesday i had my presentation..i was nevous n blabering througout my presentation...
n luckily some of them understood what i was talking about hitler..n i really had a stage fright which i thinks sometimes i could not overcome it...n thanls to veera for helping to be hitler..it was hilarious with his stern faces..n e irony of it...veera was black n hitler is wite..hehe

friday only i,nadiah,shikin n shaz went for DRAGON BOAT..the rest of my class didnt went for the school dragon boat..
so it was fun making new friends...had funs n challenging..
so Bishan people are great.. n itz the only time i spent with my gf in class...
n we are so dumbheaded we actually took the opposite bus 16 which take us to marine parade..n we actaullay wana go dhoby ghaut..slenge...
n at bugis we coicidenly bump into others...

then i meet up with idayu for awhile before heading home...n i had backache the next day....

saturday,
spent my time with baby..follow him to STA for inspection and went to AH BOY for his bike settings n his fren too...
after that we meet aminah..been so long i didnt meet her..n kinda mish her..we eat at far east after that we had our conversation at SHAW MCCAFE..
Then we go home n cant wait for the next meeting...
mwah mwah love herrr...

2009-08-16T03:33:00.000-07:00

The following week..
i was bz with my auntie wedding...n i was not feeling well n i had two days MC..been missing a lot at scholl..i was always late..i have been telling maself to be late..but itz all contradict cos i always go school two hr late...

5 aug was ma brother bdae..i pity him cos we are too bz with my auntie bdae till we got no time to celebrate his bdae..nvm my sis n i are sharing to buy his ipod touch..so he just have to wait...
n after school i have been going home tat 10pm..
helping my aunt to buy n find her things..
i was so lethargic and have to lend a hand to help at home...

Thursday meet up with sharil n helmi..we practise our duet lucky songs...
i quite tense and stiff at first when i meet them...
the practise goes well..but im still nervous for the day to come..we had to sing during dinner at my aunt wedding...
bby kept irritated me ...n im so mad..maybe i m e one who felt he was irritaing..because of so many things i have to handle..i would just burst likea balloon..so sorry baby dear for ranting at u...

Friday was the solemnisation at my house...
before that may strange things happen..well of course those people who i tell will know...

the solemnisation goes well n my house was filled with all the noise n excitement of relatives who witness my aunt n uncle wedding..
lagy2 the makcik kepok..so nosey posey...n yesh the food all finish..cos all the makciks pack to bring home..glutton..hmph...
i was like my auntie PA for that day..been answering her handphone calls n helping her with whatever she needs..busy n busy ..i didnt rest at all...

At the end of the day i feel so dead...
but e next day will be worst cos it my aunt lunch n wedding dinner..
argghh....
i have to be the MC n performer...

i overslept the next day i was late to come dwn to the cc..
thing was in a mess i had to get dwn quickly to rectify the situations..
i was like one blady mad girl..i didnt put make up nor even wear my lenses...
n i think u guys can imagine how burok i look..
n adding on to ma anger..we had short of manpower..
thanks to those people who bubble me last minute..n didn apologise the following day..thanks ekh..well of course i was damn furious..words coukd not describe it all..
luckily my sis friend was there to help at e last min..
n thanks a million to nazi for cumind dwn to help despite that she have to go to work at 4.3o..sayyyyang ko..ur e onli friend i could depend on...

i was too paiseh to sing during lunch..n nazi was like wanting me to sing..but i cant..im so nervous..
n yar luckily got kak ana help me to do my makeup n hair...
n my nenek was so nonsense wanted to intro my sister n me to her god sons..ewww...so old n not that good looking baby was better than them..so tell them fat hope..
n some of those irritating relatives need a slap frm me..with their irritaing faces..of course they are simply jealous...
sore loser!!!hahahahah....
n i dun loike mu uncle family..i hated them to the core..lazy bums..i would not descibe more here...
irritaing people...what goes ard comes ard....

so for dinner bro came..heee...he was there to sing too...
dinner was much more better and not hectic...
i just have to focus on my EMCEE thingy with mark..
baby look hot on that day..
n pity ma sis..cos she was stress up with those irritaing relatives who is a free loader n bullshit poker face..adding with my nenek friend..
i guess they are so dumb they do not understand simple english..
their brain is narrow minded and assume things without investigating first..
assholes...

but nvm...they will get to taste their own medicine soon...
i was nervous to be standing on stage infront of all those teachers n principals..i had butterfly in my stomach..n mark had to calm me dwn a lot of times..
things went great even though it was bland cos the crowd are not that supportive enough...

n yar the food was almost finish when i want to eat..hmp..hmph...
we had a lot of pictures taken...
n i do not like ATTIRA CATERING...they are dumb n cheat people money...
the chocolate fondue didnt goes well cos the chocolates didnt mell..so the chocolates was wasted ....

The day ends well though there were few hiccups...

the next day it was natinal daY..I didnt celebrate as i was working..
MARINA was damn blady packed..meet up with bro n nazi after werk to pass their token of appreciation for helping...

n school was next day n i was super lethargic...

2009-08-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

people have been complaining that i didnt update my blog and it was so dead..
so to all who have been nagging...
better open ur eyrs big2 and dun fall asleep when reading my blog itz gonna be long and mundane..so make sure u have to read every single words..mwahahah...

anyway e main reasons i was too busy too update..is i got no time..
all i do at home do my school stuff n sleep..thatz all..so where got time to update...

i cant rmb all thatz happen but i will update e ones that i rmb...
on e 31st of july friday..
i came dwn to support my sis event with fai n harris..me and bby...
The event was at DXO...
n it was so happening!!...im so proud that my sister was the event director...

when i came dwn..all her friends was like looking at me n give me e look"am i really umairah sister"like derrr...tk perlu lah nk tgk gitu mcm..

n being so sotong i forget to take my ic with me...hehe...
so had to go back to bby bike n take my ic...
since itz the first time i went to club...
so i was a bit awkward..but soon after i was comfortable with the surrounding..
suprisingly, one of my dance mates was the bartender there..and i doesnt know his name..so it was just a "hai n bye" conversation frm us...

The dancebattle was quite awesome..
having annebelle francis and sheikh haikal there makes the aura very exhilarating..
Annabelle was so hawt...Grrr...

They had the fhunky stylerz to perform..they nvr fail to put up a great performance..
two thumbs ups for them!!..
so the dance battle was btween 22beats squad n kx i think if im not wrong with the name..
i like the kx performance but i like 22beats squad dance battle..
they really put on a great effort for the battle..
my understanding for battle is..if u have to battle..u must battle lar dun just stand there showing faces n was like ""WHAT OR WHATEVER"..so kx must have good dance battle plan if they want to be in e dance battle again..

n the kx guys was hot..but sadly they are so soft n much more lady like then me..tk bleh angkt...fuhh lembut per....
n we had pictures taken with annabelle ...
n yar coicidenly sharil my grps friends was performing acoustic with his buddy helmi..i loike..
They got talent to be a band in spore..cheers for them..
Kucing and robin was equally good..
im impressed with their beatboxing..im sure sheik haikel too rite...

n the most humurous pecah perut one..is when i saw the lecturers dancing..oh my god..the must engaged dance instructor before they want to dance..hehhe..kate dah old timer kannn....

lastly the best part is they open the dance floor..wohoo..
n yar even though the songs is boring n we had actually burn some songs into e cd for the dancefloor..but the dj didnt play it..BODOH!!!
but nevertheless had a wonderful time dancing with fai n baby..
i love to grind with bby...mwahhhh...
after that we all chill by e bay...luckily no mat n minah...

in my opinions..i like the kx

2009-07-22T03:36:00.000-07:00

2009-07-22T03:06:00.000-07:00

Im feD up wiT lyfE..ColouR ma WorlD plEasE!!!

2009-07-22T02:34:00.000-07:00

now im at my bby crib with his laptop...
updating as usual ma weekly routine...
sat...after werk meet up with bro.raudha,shakir n syu..
itz been a while i didnt meet them..
so went to eat at Marina
after that we just chilling out there...
we had a blast of time together..
when we start joking about e "Nenek who sells kerepok"..
we were like making funs and scaring each other .
the most dumbest question i asked is"e nenek face berkedut ekh?"
of course they give me e "derr"look..
n shakir was like saying "tk lah muke dier cam beyonce"
so e joke went on..
anyhoots raudha say my stomach makin buncit..huhu...
so unsightly...

so i must tell maself must exercise and exercise aites...

sunday meet up with ma sis at bpp starbucks..
we chill there for a while and had our normal conversation n also regards ma aunt wedding...

monday went to watch HARRY POTTER with ma classmates...
their nonsensical and activeness makes e day..
overall the movie was left hanging..but its good and there wa not really much action packed in e movie..
itz like too bland...
n e tearsome moments is when dumbledore died..
it really touched my heart..

so i cnt wait for another movie outing with them...

tuesday,
we had our class bonding session...
in my opinions it needs some improvement and perhaps some of them should actively participate and not just sitting down there doing nothing..
duh not supportive...
after e bonding sesion..we had our lunch together at pizza hut...
after that i went for ma dance practise at tamp ite..
n i was like damn early..n worse im alone..
so i sit down like one belo girl waiting for e rest of e mates...

The dance today was fun..
apart frm practising for our performance this sun..
we also learnt new choreo for another song ..
i love e steps...

Today was rainy heavily ..
im so laziee to go to school..
i wish i could just snuggle up tight in my bed..
with ma bby beside me..
but i left with no choice cos i do not want ma attendance to drop...

toodles

2009-07-15T18:01:00.000-07:00

Ok where was i ..
darn i forget what was i suppose to update..
ok schools has been getting mundane for me..
im so lazy to wake up in e morning..
bonding in class was getting good..
im so like it..but still i still have this laziness in me to wake up early..
my dance performance is coming which is on the 26th july..
i m not excited abt this at all..
which i do not know y..
so i come for e dance practises for e sake of coming..

oooh ya now i rmb..
last sat i went to sentosa to celebrate my 7 mths with bby..
it stil holds strong..
we went to desperados, cine blast n log rides..
cos we had it all for free..hehe
though i have been there for like umpteen times..
it doesnt bored me when i go with ma buchuk..

after the blasting rides..
we went for luge and skyrides twice..
e most irritating part is when i realised that my camera doesnt have its memory card..damn...
n we didnt get to take a lots of pics..boo hoo..

luge was great cos i and bby was challenging with each other..
n i won for the first round..second round bby won..hmph..hmph..
the sky ride was romantic as ever...i loike..i loike all things quietly and spending time with bby...
the most dread part is when it rains..how terrible that can be..when i get wet..
its so terrible...

we meet aminah for a while at pahlawan beach..im so missing her...
we had our short and small conversations...
though its short but still we get to meet...
mas say she wana come.but she didnt..hmph..hmph..
in e end she say we wanna meet at town..but tak pon..haiyo kalo da dgn arif..ehem...ehem..hhehe..

so e day was spent well with loves ones..

n ya tuesday bby gal raudha kol me..talking about syafiq...
well my advise is just to ignore it..and concentrate more regards ur attachments ..
itz better this way..so now time for wake up call..i noe how u fell but we cnt just continue our life and wasting our life by being like this rite..
shall meet up with u soon..

wednesday was ma test..i was late..
but somehow i managed to complete my test on time..without checking..'
i only realised when i get home is i forget to put the ledger..which minus off two points..boo hoo..
after school i meet up with shyka..
so long we havent meet up...
rindu..
so shes in working life now..which practically good..she erans good money. oi..
and i noe e bad part of it is..u have no life..yea i agree..
we had our chit chat session..
just as i was about to go home with mal she say she got lotz of things to say..
i feel bad..she didnt tell me earlier..
n ma ppd was low..how am i supposed to kol..haish..
nvm i will contact her soon...

aniwae last sunday meet up with naz..itz a good thing she was happy now..
im happy for her..
now and the i had always had a small arguments with bby..
am i happy this way???

next i really had to curb down my spending..
but i just cant resist the temptaions..
n after o level im sure to find another weekday job..
cos i cnt depend on my bby..
i have to be independent...

im in totally mad mood now...

n ya ma pictures will have to wait at a later part to update..

2009-07-06T00:12:00.000-07:00

now im in school..
first day i was late as usual..
"queen of late"
im damn shag..
i look terrible ...
like zombie..
i think zombie looks better than me..
but bby still says that i look pretty to hym..heee...
im only managed get to sleep 1 hr..maybe less than that..
i have been doing ma project since 12 midnight to 7.30 in 3 morning...
argghh..n in e end we doesnt need to present it today..wth..waste ma blady effort and sleep...

i really need my beauty sleep..ma eyebags is buruk lar..eee...
n im craving for a big bar of chocolates van houten..
school was kinda insane ..
pretty strict with e H1N1 precautions..
itz very troublesome..
somehow im kinda miss my secondary gf..
really..
im like not able to click with people or kecoh like before..
with those lame jokes..n many more..
u noe all those gf things...
except for fai whom im really closed with...but shes in the other class...

oh ya..last wednesday was ma anniversary with bby for 7mths..
wohoo..n it still going strong..
he brought me aldo earrings set..
i loike..so ma fav things..
n i bought him boxer..
cute kann...

meet bby at vivi..accompany him to eat..with fai..
harris join us later..
then we just walk around at vivi..

thursday
i and fai had interview at Sentosa..
i was kinda lazy cos e night before i spend time doing project with bby
at ma hse..
kecian bby pai tertido..
i love to see hym sleeping..
hehehe...
he went back at 5 am...

after sentosa we went to meet bby jap..
i cnt bear if i didnt c him hym for a day..
then i ,fai love n her bf go bugis..
meet up with ma sis..
then went straight home..

friday i was werkin as usual...
oh ya..i have been receiving uknown massages n phone calls..
i turns out to be hafiran frm delifrance..
oh derr..doesnt he noe that i have a bf..
whom he also noe..
dun wurri bby..
i wun mengatal with hym...
but aniway i wun entertain hym that much...

saturday
after work..
i meet up with ma fam n cuzzins for karoakeing at cash studio..
it was gerek..
itz been so long we didnt meet up n have our family outings..
kecoh..kecoh..
but then sadly i fight with bby..
so mad at hym..
ya i noe its ma fault for making hym wait..
but he doesnt need to give me that attitude what..
hmph..hmph..benci..
ma parents was like asking y n also ma relatives..
how was i supposed to answer..
make me malu.....
geram..geram...

attention seeker...
hmph..
he ask me for forgiveness,..
it was kinda funny..
wait
"maafkan daku"sumting lyke that...
haha...
but cute...
so we onli fight for a while..
and e next day was back to normal..
cos i cnt bear to fight with hym..
who else right want to pampered me..

now im starting to bite my fingernails..nervous..afraid..
3 more mths n o level i s ard e corner..
n i only start studying for maths..
gosh i have to buck up..
on top of that i have to study for my BE n AGF..
i have to get A..to get e achivevable results...

sometimes i just felt that my freind was too busy to cntact me..
n i mish them..
i felt such a loner sometimes..
plus baby also had to work..
n yar..
next sat we gonna celebrate our anniversary at Sentosa..

every moment spent with u is precious baby..
cos u noe i love u so much...

n baby i want my Victoria Secrects Bags..pleaseee...

hugs n kisses

2009-06-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

prior to my last posts..
meet up with bro that last sat..
he was with e gang..
had great time with them..
n bro say i put on weight ..arrghh..
wth..i have to slim dwn..
i have nt been exercising nowadays....
grrr..

last monday..
we had outings to sentosa..
it was e sibling n ma aunt outing..
too bad baby was not there i mish hym..

we had tons of funs..
well, most e places.e rides we go are all for free..
wohoo..we take the cable car to sentosa..

my bro was kecoh cos hes afraid of height..so unglam..
then we take e sky tower..noothing fascinate me at all..
we went for desperados..e new rides in store..
this was awesome..cos we have e whole place to ourselves..
this ride was cool..it was shooting game..
next we had ur pirates 3d to watch..well i have been watching that for abt 3 times..

then we went to underwater world..
e fishes there was beautiful..
it amazed me..

n ya everywhere we go the sentosa phototaker will take photo of us..
alah2 like tourists..hee..
being very kiasu we buy all e photos..
e last ride we had was skyride...

ooh i like this ride..
how i wish baby was by my side n we are cuddling each other..
so romantic..
beautiful i must say..
then we went back by e cables car n had a lot of camwhoring..

tues
i had ma dance training..
guess what..
i had to learn latin jazz..pecah..
me learning latin jazz..
omg..disastrous..
no choice have to learn..
after e dance
ma whole body was aching like mad..
have been twisting and twisting all over...
after dance accompany baby go to taka..he wants to send his resignation letter..
then we had our dinner with his mum at delifrance.

wed we learn hip hop my love by justin timberlake..
k i like e training today..
e choreo was great...
im so lovin it...
after that had lunch with fai..

thurs we had theather dance..
this is lagi worse..we had t be drama mama...
sickening..simply not enjyable..

fri..we combine all e dance together..
i was late..haha..i dun care..cos i dun intend to rmb e latinjazz steps..
blah blah..our sessins ended with mabel today..
luckily ur performance for 1st july was postphoned to further notice due to h1n1..
thank god..
after that baby and i went to illuma..get ma hp casing ..
we also watch transformers ..
i so love e movie..
megan fox was hot..
i love her..
haha...
when am i able to get body shape like her..hahah..perasan..fat hope..

sat 27..
shafiq msg me wishes for our anni..
damn itz over..
irritaing..
there was celebration at my house 4 in one..
ma mum and dad anni..ma grandma n bby sis bdae and fathers day..
s kecoh..
so we had 3 cakes to cut and take photos..
decoration was good..
baby was there to help and accompany me..hee...

sunday was my events..
though my banner was sucks ..but it didnt put much attention though...
it was so hot..
i was like sweating bullets...
e heat plus e people..makes me irritate..
our stall had a lot of crowds..till we had to buy few more candles...
e scdf guys was trying to get me n suria attention..
derr ..please2 nt my type...

i make new frens..nurul,morgan, neyo a.k.a yusof..haha...
e event ended great..e aunties there was helpful..gave us a lot of ice creams..
we had ur photo sessions..
it was great..one event dwn we had few more to go..

then baby fetch me..
we go town to find his clothes for work..
last resort we went mustafa centre..i swear it was utterly irritating to go there..
i hate e people there..
cmon spore have imposed traffic rules..cnt they follow..
this is not MUMBAI..this is SPORE..
blady irritaing..
i felt like gorgeing out their eyes..
baby was ma protector..he hug me all e way when we were inside e mustaffar centre..
love hym..ma buchuk..

then we had discussions for ma aunt wedding..i cnt wait for e real day to come..

monday
was bby first day at aldo..
so far so good..
i noe he gona do his best..
ya he look hawt wearing smart..
oh damn cair..saliva drooling..hahah...

i was suppose to go to work..but i was sick..
ma in charge was irritaing..na beh..fcuk her...
aniwes this is ma last wk of holidae..i wish it will be extend..

n ya photos will be updated k