Sunday, January 27 @ 4:10 AM
Isnt it funni hw time seem to slip away fast...
one minute youre happy.. the other youre sad.. But if u give me one more chaNce to show ma love 4 u is true.. i stay by ur side... your whole life through... if life is so short... y wun u let me love u b4 we ran out of time... if love is so strong.. y wun u take e chance b4 our time has gone.. if life is so short.. love is the one that explain.. hw i elt 4 u... when youre at ma arms all ma dreams came true.. and wen ur nt ard... cant hardly c u... this tears im crying out are for u... to be with me... |
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@ 3:58 AM
haish..i still kept waiting for him...should i juz give up?n move on with ma life??
watz so good about dat BITCH den me?y cant he apreciate me?am i nt gud enuf for him??Well aT least dere is stiill ma gf who is alwaes be dere 4 me...when i nid them most..thanks GF..love u guys...please be true to me...Den ma besties sae dat she saw daE sure she will Suffer hw l Suffer...n Till i am dead i wun forgive her n hym... |
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@ 3:51 AM
Today was just anotheR boring day...skul den went for cca...bt somethinG embarassing happen to me...after np..ma teacher treat us at sinaran...shockingly...i was about to grab a chai to put ma beg..when suddenly..i felt and lost ma balance..OMG!!!it was embarassing..aLL e people dere was looking at me n eventhe mat mtr...OW!!well..to cover up ma embarassing moments..i just laugh ma hearts out..what to do i so paiseh leh..kwang2..e mora of the story is nt to be lazy and wen u fall..Please be quick to stand up..hahak
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Monday, January 21 @ 3:57 AM
i I may b forgiving bt i cant forget..
Something u did at me.. till death i swear i wun forget.. it is realy beyond what i expect.. even hear ur name i despise.. Cheers for what you did to me!! youre happy nw? Sastisied with wat u did? seeing me in pain is ur goal rite!! i tell u wat I HATE U!! I HATE U!! Even nw looking at u makes me wana trash ur face n puke.. Nvm ..revenge is sweet... people..people... who cn i trust... y must u guys break ma trust?? |
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@ 3:51 AM
In life u cnt trust others but yourself...
People may lokk sweet and innocent... maybe can be so good to you.. but u might never know.. they are much more cunning and deceiving... you can ever imagine... itz either you have to be tough or mean to people.. or else they will just stepover u.. pretending datz nothing happen.. this is life... you have to stand up for urself or u have to be mean... you cnt be nice to these type of people or else they will take advantage of u.. then they will nt feel guilty at all.. |
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@ 3:07 AM
Shafiq confessed to me...he sae dat he has go out wit her..so all this while he has been lying to me!!..All this while my instinct was right...This is wat god wants me to know..wants me to see...i cant believe it..y must it be her!!y cant it b other girls!!...y?y?..y must it be with someone whom i know..Now hes blaming for everything...He blames me!!hw could him!!...The pain in my heart will 4 sure remains.PEOPLE MAY LOOK INNOCENT BUT ACTUALLY THEY ARE WOLF IN SHEEP CLOTHING...After what they did..Sorry was all they could say!!In e first place she knows dat im wit him..y must she makes me distrust her..ya everyone makes a mistakes..But should i forgive them??Do they deserved that?They really such a bitching thing that really happened in my life.Y didnt everyone tel me in e first place??Now what should i do?Must i keep quiet and just be domb about it?How would u feel if someone who u treat like your own gud friends..Did this to u..I dont care if she take me as a friend or nt..But it is really fucking shit!!..y wen i am gud and nice people treat me lyke this?Must i be bad and bitchy..so that they wun do diz to me?What have i done wrong?that they must treat me lyke diz?it really teach me nt to trust pple..Friends are a lot but u hardly get ones whom you can trust n depend...
But for me it teach me hw to judge pple nw.. damn it!!..i try nt to tink bt it anymore..but it just kept on disturbing ma mind..I nid peace..i nid it badly..it hurts me..hurts me a lot..How can i juz forget about it easily?i feel lyke running away frm everyone..i dun noe what to do?im fucking stress!!peopple know me as a cheerful person..i tried to hide problems frm them..they didnt know dat i am in miserable..Should i juz forgive them? im confused..i juz doesnt know when thiz hatred n pain will go away..i swear i wun find a friend with her name..it mades me opens up to judge people..Should i be more mean and cunning so that i will be treated like what it should be?how about i try and did dat to her..she like it!!!Ya rite!!fuck with their words!! and apologies..Moment of folly my foot!!arh!!it disgusts me!!..I never been so mad and hate people in ma whole entire life..even e bitches whom i hate is not worse than them..Trying to talk to me...you think dat wil settle e prob?hah!and take it dat nothing happen?Bullshit!!.. Nvm..Maybe rit nw..they are juz laughing at me..nvm..what goes around comes around!!!...i believe in dat!!Dont mess wit me or i wil get into ur bitching life...wen im gud..u better treat me nice...now hes telling me bullshit things that he still loves me and hes onli having fun.FUCK U!!!he wants to start anew...is that simple? i lost a lot of friends and did a lot of things just for him...this is what i get??when i didnt flirt with guys ..u never see..but wen i did u blame me badly..Someone please give me peace...i nid to think..i dunno what to do..All i want is sincerity..How do u expect me to believe him anymore?..in e first place if he dosent like me..he can jolly well tell me...i doesnt nid to waste my blady time dedicated to him... ya pple think im hepi bt im nt!!..y are u guys so mean..y are u ruining ma happiness..ma life!!..i di not messed up with ur life..y must they messed up mine?..im lost!!aargh!!it freaking me out...Now den she realised her mistakes..ITZ TOO LATE MISSY!!!...things cant change e way it seems... TO THIS PERSON...I TRUST YOU A LOT AND EVEN TREAT U LIKE MA GOOD PALS... I CANT BELIEVE IT ...HOW DECEIVING YOU ARE...YOU KNOW HOW PAINFUL IT IS!!!IT IS MUCH MORE PAINFUL THAN THOSE BITCHES HURT ME...I HOPE U GET WAT I MEAN!!IF EVER A DAY IN UR LYFE IN A RELATIONSHIP AND SOMETHING LYKE THIS WERE TO HAPPEN..RMB U DID THIS TO ME AND IT TURNS TO U BACK TO U..DUN WURI I WUN HATE U..THANKS A LOTZ $ WAT HAS HPN..U RUIN IT!!...IM NT DAT BAD TO REVEAL UR IDENTITY..COS I STIL RESPECT PEOPLE REPUTATION...LUCKY 4 U...U HAVE BECUM MA FWEN FOR ONCE..IF NOT I DUNNO WHAT WILL I DO TO U... |
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@ 2:57 AM
todae was ma bestie bdae..shika..wohoo..ma gf celebrate her bdae at wisma atria...starbucks...sob..sob they never left a piece of cake for me...cos i was late frm work..hehe..nvm...den i fave tiz strange feelings dat shafiq is going out with gals..haish i dunno weather to trust ma instincts...after dat i mit aminah n mas at far east plaza..derr i was late..luckily i never get scolded..hmmm i can be labelled as ''late quEen''...going out with dem was fun...crazy...make stopid jokes...laughing..such a long tyme i nvr go out wit dem...den we went to the esplanade...e songs at e gigs were pretty nice...derr i duno frm which band they are..they are quite impressive...sitting dwn dere u can see lotz of different people...n some sure are very irritating....afterall going out out with ma besties was e best moments ever..cant wait to go out wit dem again!!!...
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@ 2:49 AM
As usual..im working on tis dae...haish i was supposed to meet shafiq after work..but we didnt..he did nt tell me that he gt to go for an escort...we never meet for quite a long tyme..but yet he go for e escort instead of seeing me...which is more impt me or his friends..im sick and tired of his attitude...den i and ma gf went to far east plaza...n u wanna know what..this sickening bus driver of 190 bus did not open e door for us!!!i mean lyke wat e hell..i have been pressing e bell for so many times...and still did not open e door..aargh...paiseh seh..people were looking at us..omg!!...i feel like slaughtered e bus driver...in e end we alight at scotts rd...take taxi to far east...keke...
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Friday, January 11 @ 5:46 AM
Life is full of ups n downs...
u doesnt realli actually noes watz e true meaning of lyfe.. it can be good or it can be bad.... but u never realised that... what ur friend has go through n gone through.. is e true meaning of lyfe... u have to go through it rather than u gone through it... |
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@ 5:41 AM
found maself today...
ooh i found maself and ran away.... something pulls me back... voice of reason i forgot i had... no i wun give up... no i wun break down... sooner den it seems like turns around... n i will be strong even if itz all go wrong... wen im standing in e dark i still believe... someone watching over me.... s |
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@ 5:24 AM
Well...thUrsdae was Such an EMBARASSING day!!!...aarh...i sign up for an enrichment class on emas programme...itz malay dance...all nana fault lar...muz acompany her lol...so i decided to try....n u guess hw i dance...it was like OMG!!!...i m nt used to be dancing so lemah e lembut...keke sak....i make a fool out of maself...infront of e junior...AARh..where shuld i put ma face sak!!....malu seh...keke...it was supposed to be malay dance...but i go and dance like hip hop...i juz dance...cover ma face...hw i dance it reminds me of a fat chicken who cant fly..hahak...nw i decided to backout frm e dance....
today i do not watz wong wit me...i felt loneliness 4 a while...den i juz feel crying..n i juz let it out...im too stress..theres a lotz of things that running through in my mind...where is shafiq wen i nid him most....he kept on saying dat i am irritating...if i am..y cant he juz let me go...i juz doent know wheather he is true to me...it reallie hurtz me a lot...all i want now is to have peaceful...n hope somepne out dere....make a wonder to ma life... |
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Friday, January 4 @ 4:08 AM
hey people...school has started...feel a bit awkward cos itz been so long im nt wearing ma uniform...hehe...kental seh...im fed up wit shafiq again..he kept on teling me nt to werk...derr...i nid money...so datz y i werk...y cant he understand me...i have this instinct..dat shafiq is playing bhd ma bck...deres tiz strong feeling telling me dat i should nt trust him....haish...he say dat he is getting bored wit me...den y should he go on wit me?..im scared...arent i am gud enuf for him?...he also say that he wants to find another gal...bt he will be setia wit me...what should i do?i dunno wheather he is foking or serious...im too sad...sometimes i juz dunnoe wat to do animore...if he really wanna let me go...by all means n i wuld try to accept it...bt pleaz dun lie to me...
am i being maself or juz another who is not her real self? |
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Sunday, January 27 @ 4:10 AM
Isnt it funni hw time seem to slip away fast...
one minute youre happy.. the other youre sad.. But if u give me one more chaNce to show ma love 4 u is true.. i stay by ur side... your whole life through... if life is so short... y wun u let me love u b4 we ran out of time... if love is so strong.. y wun u take e chance b4 our time has gone.. if life is so short.. love is the one that explain.. hw i elt 4 u... when youre at ma arms all ma dreams came true.. and wen ur nt ard... cant hardly c u... this tears im crying out are for u... to be with me... |
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@ 3:58 AM
haish..i still kept waiting for him...should i juz give up?n move on with ma life??
watz so good about dat BITCH den me?y cant he apreciate me?am i nt gud enuf for him??Well aT least dere is stiill ma gf who is alwaes be dere 4 me...when i nid them most..thanks GF..love u guys...please be true to me...Den ma besties sae dat she saw daE sure she will Suffer hw l Suffer...n Till i am dead i wun forgive her n hym... |
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@ 3:51 AM
Today was just anotheR boring day...skul den went for cca...bt somethinG embarassing happen to me...after np..ma teacher treat us at sinaran...shockingly...i was about to grab a chai to put ma beg..when suddenly..i felt and lost ma balance..OMG!!!it was embarassing..aLL e people dere was looking at me n eventhe mat mtr...OW!!well..to cover up ma embarassing moments..i just laugh ma hearts out..what to do i so paiseh leh..kwang2..e mora of the story is nt to be lazy and wen u fall..Please be quick to stand up..hahak
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Monday, January 21 @ 3:57 AM
i I may b forgiving bt i cant forget..
Something u did at me.. till death i swear i wun forget.. it is realy beyond what i expect.. even hear ur name i despise.. Cheers for what you did to me!! youre happy nw? Sastisied with wat u did? seeing me in pain is ur goal rite!! i tell u wat I HATE U!! I HATE U!! Even nw looking at u makes me wana trash ur face n puke.. Nvm ..revenge is sweet... people..people... who cn i trust... y must u guys break ma trust?? |
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@ 3:51 AM
In life u cnt trust others but yourself...
People may lokk sweet and innocent... maybe can be so good to you.. but u might never know.. they are much more cunning and deceiving... you can ever imagine... itz either you have to be tough or mean to people.. or else they will just stepover u.. pretending datz nothing happen.. this is life... you have to stand up for urself or u have to be mean... you cnt be nice to these type of people or else they will take advantage of u.. then they will nt feel guilty at all.. |
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@ 3:07 AM
Shafiq confessed to me...he sae dat he has go out wit her..so all this while he has been lying to me!!..All this while my instinct was right...This is wat god wants me to know..wants me to see...i cant believe it..y must it be her!!y cant it b other girls!!...y?y?..y must it be with someone whom i know..Now hes blaming for everything...He blames me!!hw could him!!...The pain in my heart will 4 sure remains.PEOPLE MAY LOOK INNOCENT BUT ACTUALLY THEY ARE WOLF IN SHEEP CLOTHING...After what they did..Sorry was all they could say!!In e first place she knows dat im wit him..y must she makes me distrust her..ya everyone makes a mistakes..But should i forgive them??Do they deserved that?They really such a bitching thing that really happened in my life.Y didnt everyone tel me in e first place??Now what should i do?Must i keep quiet and just be domb about it?How would u feel if someone who u treat like your own gud friends..Did this to u..I dont care if she take me as a friend or nt..But it is really fucking shit!!..y wen i am gud and nice people treat me lyke this?Must i be bad and bitchy..so that they wun do diz to me?What have i done wrong?that they must treat me lyke diz?it really teach me nt to trust pple..Friends are a lot but u hardly get ones whom you can trust n depend...
But for me it teach me hw to judge pple nw.. damn it!!..i try nt to tink bt it anymore..but it just kept on disturbing ma mind..I nid peace..i nid it badly..it hurts me..hurts me a lot..How can i juz forget about it easily?i feel lyke running away frm everyone..i dun noe what to do?im fucking stress!!peopple know me as a cheerful person..i tried to hide problems frm them..they didnt know dat i am in miserable..Should i juz forgive them? im confused..i juz doesnt know when thiz hatred n pain will go away..i swear i wun find a friend with her name..it mades me opens up to judge people..Should i be more mean and cunning so that i will be treated like what it should be?how about i try and did dat to her..she like it!!!Ya rite!!fuck with their words!! and apologies..Moment of folly my foot!!arh!!it disgusts me!!..I never been so mad and hate people in ma whole entire life..even e bitches whom i hate is not worse than them..Trying to talk to me...you think dat wil settle e prob?hah!and take it dat nothing happen?Bullshit!!.. Nvm..Maybe rit nw..they are juz laughing at me..nvm..what goes around comes around!!!...i believe in dat!!Dont mess wit me or i wil get into ur bitching life...wen im gud..u better treat me nice...now hes telling me bullshit things that he still loves me and hes onli having fun.FUCK U!!!he wants to start anew...is that simple? i lost a lot of friends and did a lot of things just for him...this is what i get??when i didnt flirt with guys ..u never see..but wen i did u blame me badly..Someone please give me peace...i nid to think..i dunno what to do..All i want is sincerity..How do u expect me to believe him anymore?..in e first place if he dosent like me..he can jolly well tell me...i doesnt nid to waste my blady time dedicated to him... ya pple think im hepi bt im nt!!..y are u guys so mean..y are u ruining ma happiness..ma life!!..i di not messed up with ur life..y must they messed up mine?..im lost!!aargh!!it freaking me out...Now den she realised her mistakes..ITZ TOO LATE MISSY!!!...things cant change e way it seems... TO THIS PERSON...I TRUST YOU A LOT AND EVEN TREAT U LIKE MA GOOD PALS... I CANT BELIEVE IT ...HOW DECEIVING YOU ARE...YOU KNOW HOW PAINFUL IT IS!!!IT IS MUCH MORE PAINFUL THAN THOSE BITCHES HURT ME...I HOPE U GET WAT I MEAN!!IF EVER A DAY IN UR LYFE IN A RELATIONSHIP AND SOMETHING LYKE THIS WERE TO HAPPEN..RMB U DID THIS TO ME AND IT TURNS TO U BACK TO U..DUN WURI I WUN HATE U..THANKS A LOTZ $ WAT HAS HPN..U RUIN IT!!...IM NT DAT BAD TO REVEAL UR IDENTITY..COS I STIL RESPECT PEOPLE REPUTATION...LUCKY 4 U...U HAVE BECUM MA FWEN FOR ONCE..IF NOT I DUNNO WHAT WILL I DO TO U... |
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@ 2:57 AM
todae was ma bestie bdae..shika..wohoo..ma gf celebrate her bdae at wisma atria...starbucks...sob..sob they never left a piece of cake for me...cos i was late frm work..hehe..nvm...den i fave tiz strange feelings dat shafiq is going out with gals..haish i dunno weather to trust ma instincts...after dat i mit aminah n mas at far east plaza..derr i was late..luckily i never get scolded..hmmm i can be labelled as ''late quEen''...going out with dem was fun...crazy...make stopid jokes...laughing..such a long tyme i nvr go out wit dem...den we went to the esplanade...e songs at e gigs were pretty nice...derr i duno frm which band they are..they are quite impressive...sitting dwn dere u can see lotz of different people...n some sure are very irritating....afterall going out out with ma besties was e best moments ever..cant wait to go out wit dem again!!!...
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@ 2:49 AM
As usual..im working on tis dae...haish i was supposed to meet shafiq after work..but we didnt..he did nt tell me that he gt to go for an escort...we never meet for quite a long tyme..but yet he go for e escort instead of seeing me...which is more impt me or his friends..im sick and tired of his attitude...den i and ma gf went to far east plaza...n u wanna know what..this sickening bus driver of 190 bus did not open e door for us!!!i mean lyke wat e hell..i have been pressing e bell for so many times...and still did not open e door..aargh...paiseh seh..people were looking at us..omg!!...i feel like slaughtered e bus driver...in e end we alight at scotts rd...take taxi to far east...keke...
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Friday, January 11 @ 5:46 AM
Life is full of ups n downs...
u doesnt realli actually noes watz e true meaning of lyfe.. it can be good or it can be bad.... but u never realised that... what ur friend has go through n gone through.. is e true meaning of lyfe... u have to go through it rather than u gone through it... |
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@ 5:41 AM
found maself today...
ooh i found maself and ran away.... something pulls me back... voice of reason i forgot i had... no i wun give up... no i wun break down... sooner den it seems like turns around... n i will be strong even if itz all go wrong... wen im standing in e dark i still believe... someone watching over me.... s |
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@ 5:24 AM
Well...thUrsdae was Such an EMBARASSING day!!!...aarh...i sign up for an enrichment class on emas programme...itz malay dance...all nana fault lar...muz acompany her lol...so i decided to try....n u guess hw i dance...it was like OMG!!!...i m nt used to be dancing so lemah e lembut...keke sak....i make a fool out of maself...infront of e junior...AARh..where shuld i put ma face sak!!....malu seh...keke...it was supposed to be malay dance...but i go and dance like hip hop...i juz dance...cover ma face...hw i dance it reminds me of a fat chicken who cant fly..hahak...nw i decided to backout frm e dance....
today i do not watz wong wit me...i felt loneliness 4 a while...den i juz feel crying..n i juz let it out...im too stress..theres a lotz of things that running through in my mind...where is shafiq wen i nid him most....he kept on saying dat i am irritating...if i am..y cant he juz let me go...i juz doent know wheather he is true to me...it reallie hurtz me a lot...all i want now is to have peaceful...n hope somepne out dere....make a wonder to ma life... |
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Friday, January 4 @ 4:08 AM
hey people...school has started...feel a bit awkward cos itz been so long im nt wearing ma uniform...hehe...kental seh...im fed up wit shafiq again..he kept on teling me nt to werk...derr...i nid money...so datz y i werk...y cant he understand me...i have this instinct..dat shafiq is playing bhd ma bck...deres tiz strong feeling telling me dat i should nt trust him....haish...he say dat he is getting bored wit me...den y should he go on wit me?..im scared...arent i am gud enuf for him?...he also say that he wants to find another gal...bt he will be setia wit me...what should i do?i dunno wheather he is foking or serious...im too sad...sometimes i juz dunnoe wat to do animore...if he really wanna let me go...by all means n i wuld try to accept it...bt pleaz dun lie to me...
am i being maself or juz another who is not her real self? |
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