Tuesday, April 29 @ 11:17 PM
people saY..that liFe may be beautiFul as it is..but do they know how to make it beautifUl..
liFe for me once is beautiFul..bt nw..theRes no colours to ma liFe.. it is juz an emptineSs.. Dullness.. ThouGh i may saE dat im hEpi..bt do i? Do i even noe hw to make ma life colourful once more.. N brighten it up with much more..meaningful thinGs,, |
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@ 10:55 PM
okehh..toadae ma hunnie has an audition for hip hop crew at her skul..well i reallie hope she cn make it lar seii..yea she must..lol..poor cyg...hee..lol..i am so damn tired..todae..well..after wat she msg me..e memory which i longed wanting to leave bhd..came back..shit!!..sickening..cnt dey juz buzz off..i trying to make maself happy here lol...
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@ 10:46 PM
ystd she msg me..tellin me dat sahafiq told her he was kinda worried for me..n scared that i might ruined ma life..wat e hell??..nonsenses..watever k..jgn nk step maner nye concern bleh tk..pleash lar..i doesnt nid ur concern..u have alreadi hurt me still wana step maner nye baek....Juz Buzz off ok..to me ur both are dead..i dun cr bt u both...get a lifE alRite..it reminds me of ma pain..deRr..
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Monday, April 28 @ 12:34 AM
OK im Damn BorED..haisH..y do guys juz easilY say dat they like someonE..whereelsE..they juz getn to noe dat person..i mean izit realiee sincere or juz catch no balls..h...or they juz sae that itz fallin in love at the first sight..is dere such thing?cos i dun believe in them animore..is all bullshit..perhaps maybe someone reallie know how to taech me waht love it is ..n jus swEet woRds..which doesnt mean anitinG..cos by doin so..u gain nothinG..but hurting morE people..my past has brought me to be like this..i have changed..ma perspective has changEd..people hope u understanD..
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Sunday, April 27 @ 7:15 AM
ystd i met up with khai..firman n ammar..e bpys frm south view primary..lol i mish them lar shey..mit them at one of e gals birthday party hee..i cnt wait to go escape theme park with dem..lol..they are shoo cute..
aniwae..todae was supposedly to be ma anniversary of me n hym..it will be about one yr nine mths..i mish hym..he..muz be hapy with her nw..i wonder if he ever gt tink of me..on tiz dae..we alwaes went out n celebrate..haish..itz all in e past nw..aniwae..life for me quite stress..im afraid i cnt cope with ma studies..im trying..trying to beat dat bitch point..lol |
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Wednesday, April 23 @ 11:42 PM
The very thought of u..
anD i forget to do.. e little ordinary thinGs that everyone ought to do I sEe ur Face EverywHere.. your eyes in stars above.. itz just the thought of u.. the very thought of u.. |
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@ 12:36 AM
Sometimes..i just wonder..wat has happen to me..izzit because due to a certain reasons..that served a purposes..
Did everytin happen has a reason.. it hard 4 me to accept..but i try.. MaYbe..e ans will cum later..i dunno..bt i hope everyting happen..good things will cum in retuRn.. Should i wait for him..or should i nt?? Perhaps maybe.. |
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@ 12:30 AM
Everydae for me is so boring..
its e repeated schedule dat i have been doing lol.. so bz..i dun even have time for maself.. and wait..for another two wks..i have to stay at hm..like derr..damn bored sia.. haish..have to study fot this upcuming test..lol.. i mus sae..i mish hangin out wit ma hunnie ma love..mas n aminah..hee..cnt wait to go out with dem lol..in two wks time..so long sia... hee..aniwae itz bveen a long time since i have nt hangout with ma another dearest..raudha..hee..nvm..gonna text her..n mit up with her soon..lol.. |
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@ 12:18 AM
sometimes u cannot believe what u see..
u have to believe what u feel.. and if u are ever going to have other people trust u.. u must feel that u can trust them too.. even when youre in e dark.. even when youre falling.. |
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Monday, April 21 @ 1:09 AM
To Alin..Tanks 4 ur AdviSe..i wrote bt heR coS im DissapoinTed n Regret oF havinG her As ma Fwen b4..Who miGth noeS e peRson whoM i CallEd frienDs..Stab me at thE baCk..TeLl ya E truTh..i Did hatE her B4..Bt i havE foRgivEn heR..MAybE nw She Didnt reaLisE what shE has Did To me As heR frEn..IF eveR a dAe sHe realisE dat..I wElComEd heR baCk As a fRieNd..BuT itU pun Kalo She Feel GuilT abouT wat shE has Done..All Tiz WhilE she nvR apoloGisE..She is SelFish..anD shE neveR thinK..For 5 YrS i havE bEen WaiTinG foR hym..She noes iT..Bt shE simplY juS iGnoRe..is daT wat u CaLleD a fRen..Im nT an anGeL..I cnT toleraTe..I do havE feElinG..anD itz nT onCe..Itz tWiCe...ShE stIll besAr kepalE..She Tinks She Wins alReaDi...IF aS a FreN She noEs dAT im wIt Hym..E basIc thInG sHe wiLl Do is Nt To menGaTal Wit hYm..n IT doeSnt maTteR iF i Lo sE aFren likE heR..FoR ShaFiQ..itZ haRd 4 me..5 yrs is nt a ShoRt time minD u..i have BeeN WaiTinG 4 Hym SinCe Sec onE..imaGinE..Nw It tUrN out Diz waE..i nvR asK much..Nor AskinG or hoPing..Their RelationShip wiLl enD sOoN..im Nt.. I juz hope foR e daE wheRe they Jus noE hw muCh huR n paIn..They has brouGht mE..I juz wan Them to Go through it like Hw i Do..meAninG..wat goEs ar d CumS ard...I noe it
Z ma majoR yr..imTryinG ma beSt to ConcentraTe...TEll ya e tRuth ..i stIll have hopE oF waiTinG fOR hym..CoS i Juz hopIng hE wIll Come baCk an dRealisE hw muCh i reAlliE lovE hym..i noE itz imppoSibLe..Bt i juZ waiT..n Wait..TiLl everI daE..WheRe..someonE elsE cn open up ma hart..ya ma fwen is Alwaes dErE 4 me..i treAsuRe dem loTz..n Lovve TheM lotz..Tanks 4 uR adviSe aniwaE..MuCh appreciaTed.. |
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Saturday, April 19 @ 7:33 AM
What makes her so muCh better den me
wat makes her so much dat i could nvr be.. wat makes her so much..dat she is everytin.. wat her so much dat u fantasize her.. wat makes her so much dat shes amazed u.. wat makes her so much in everytin... |
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@ 6:49 AM
weLl todaE was supposedly i go melaca with ma mummie..bt den..she juz left me..like derr..she never wake me up lol...nw im staying at home..so bored sia..juz do ma hwk n studying lol..wen am i goin to finish ma o level!!
SiTtin dwn in ma bed..alone..i kept rmbering e memories dat i had with hym..e photos which i still kept..e present..n most imptantly e ring.. i still cnt bear to take it off i have been wearing it for like one yr plus.. haish..it so hurtful..i cn rmb all those memories vividly.. y muz it turn out diz wae... hw i wish i culd juz erase all these memories... we break..was nt ma fault..i didnt do anitin wrung at all sometimes i just wonder whether i should juz wait for hym or to move on... i tink i juz wait..till e dae where someone else cn open ma heart again.. i be waiting till i given up.. i neo it may b stoopid..i juz leave it to fate... |
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Friday, April 18 @ 7:48 AM
Shafiq2 Stop it with ur swit mother fucker word !!wen i read backe msg dat u sent..it was all bullshit!!JUz admit lar u reallie such a jerk!!wun erase me frm ur mind??dun spoil a life??im alwaes appear in ur mind??wuri bt me??dat i wun take care of maself..dun 4get u??cut dwn on guys..plesh lar..all tiz bullshit..asshole!!u cn jolly go n wuri bt ur blady bitch..im goin to forget u like hell n itz ma life..u doesnt nid to bother on hw mani guys i wana noe..dammit..jgn nk step manernye concern..i will wait for time..wen everything gona change..where i fell dat ma hurt..pain n suffer da di balas..!!i will.. n i will..it may ny be nw..bt i will cum..u wun be easily running away frm dat..trust me!!
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@ 7:25 AM
FIRSTLY I WANA SAY..TO THE BITCH BY E NAMED OF NADIA IDROS... BUZZ OFF N STOP READING N SNOOPING WITH MA BLOG.. DUN BE IRRITATIN..WAT MORE U WANT..DA DPT TU JERK KAN.. DEN CAN JOLLY WELL BERAMBUS OKEHH!!!!SICKENING PEOPLE!! MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT FOR PEOPLE!!I DUN WANA NOE ABT A SHITT BT U BOTH !!..TO HELL..DAH LAH BUAL2 WORLD..STEP TK UKE SHAFIQ KONON..DATZ Y DELETE UR BLOG WRITE TO GET RID OF EVIDENCE..PRANGAI CM DOG!! |
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Thursday, April 17 @ 12:05 AM
ok..to the people comment me at ma blog..tanks a lot for advise..i appreciate it lotz lar seii..it takes time for me..but i try..i will..n move on with ma love..tanks to e people who are concern for me..love u guys a lotz lar seii..im trying nto forget the memories...n everytin..
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Wednesday, April 16 @ 11:48 PM
Tuesdae was great...we mit up with apian n nashy boi..huh..juz get to noe dem..serious speakin..dey ar funni lar sei..a good peeps to hang ard with..makin ma day..well for e least i did nt think bout him wen i was with dem..hee..juz hangin out n lepak till 6 aft dat .we ahead back hm..
wEdnesdae mit up wit ma hunie..mas..as usual..we go library and tok about life..huhu..tokin to her make me relieve..cos shes e onli one and others who understand me..tanks bebeh..for being dere 4 me all thiz while..i love u to e max..seii.. at nite shafiq called he sae hes stress up n he told me he quit skul alreadi..like wtf..y e hell did he quit?whatz gona becum of him..if he doesnt have education at all!!hw stoopid culd he be without thorough tinking bt his decision!!haish..hes dissapointing me and his mum..n he told me his mish tokin to me n wana hear ma voice...i dun noe wat to sae..let hym be.. |
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Tuesday, April 15 @ 12:02 AM
peOplE kept tellin to move on..n i will finD a betteR person..
i noE dat..but it just too painFul too move on cos i kept remberinG thosE memories..wheather they are e happy moments or even e painful moments.. y muz this kept happening to me..y. isnt it strange dat i love him a lot..despite watever he did to me or even he doesnt make me hepi..i still keep wantinG to be with hymm..people can call me craziee or stopid but i duno y..i maself doesnt even noe hw to explain about it.. All e more i kept yearning for hym..but all e more im getting maself hurt.. i juz wonder what his motive of patching up things with me..what does he gain by doin this..by hurting is what he desire most..i admit he was a jerk..n sorry for all he could say... i dunno wheather i should juz hate him or nt..e pain still doesnt go away..itz nt once he did to me..itz a lot of times..y cnt he treasure our relationship.. y cnt he appreciate ma sacrifices.. Cmon amiRah WAKE UP n face E REALITY..UR stRONG!!..U can do iT..Dun bcos of him u suFfer in silence..move on ..move on..hes nt worth it...deres someone better..he for sure will regret wat he did to u..for sure..n dat bitch ..bat things will befall her..rmb..every bad deed will be paid...datz e dae i will be waiting for...u hurt me enuf..u both..n im sure..u guys will fell hw i feel one dae..4 sure..i may lose nw..bt nt in e future...e bitch still doesnt realise her mistakes.. |
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Monday, April 14 @ 11:50 PM
A FRiends is more than someone who wipes
your tears when u are sad.. they are more than person u called When someone u incredibly mad A true friend does not have to be a person u spend every weekend or even someone who lives just ard e bend A friend Can be with whom u shared a single moment but u felt like it was just 4 u they were sent friendship does not always have to build up over years it is like love..sometimes just appears So always rmb that each person u meet has this potential to be someone Especially interesting and neat try nt to judge those who dont seen ur' 'type'' because their personality may fit just right and always treasure ur friends do not ever be selfish a Friend inneed is a freind indeed |
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Sunday, April 13 @ 1:54 AM
thinking of e things that has hpn to me recently..reallie hurt me..shafiq..y ae u treating me like diz..am i nt gud enuf 4 u?..we have been together for quite a long time..and i have known u for so long..dont u ever believe or trust dat ma feelings 4 u is real..or else y should i bother to accept u back..i like u since sec 1 ..look..itz been 5 yrs..mind u..5 yrs..itz nt dat short period..hw cul u realie did this to me..wen u go to dat bitch..do u noe hw much u have hurt me..u reliee hurt me deeply..despite that..i still could accept u bck wen u sae u wana patch things p with me..i tot u wuld cange n appreciate me..bt udidnt..u kept hurtin me n ctrllin ma life..u kept lying to me n never once u tried to make me hepi..dun u ever appreciate me..y are u doin this..havent u hurt me enuf..i dun realiee understand u..n are u goin to realise it huh..if ut ink by ending it itz e best way..den it will be..but watever it is i did noting wrung to u..itz u hu mke a lot of mistakes to me..all e best to u i ur life..
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@ 12:53 AM
ystd was such a wrecked day 4 me..haish..it reallie ruined ma mood..aniwae..it was quite super duper fun hangin out with ma cyg mas and aminah..aniwae ma skul band gt silver 4 syf..i pity them..and i was shocked dat they gt silver..frm wat i tink..they realiiee..put in alot of effort n work hard 4 it..nvm..there will alwaes be e nxt tyme...aniwae nxt sat i cant go out..lol..o level yr mah..haish so bored..i can onli go out alternate wks.school was quite stressful 4 me..i hpe i could make it through and make it to poly...
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Thursday, April 10 @ 10:33 PM
well..yst sha kol me n ask wheather i wana join them for e dance com..well i loved it..bt theres a hindrance for me..i have to ask ma parents permission lo..sigh..itz ma o level yr and they are very strict wit me..lol..dancing is reallie ma passion n hobby..i badly reallie wana join with mas as well..haish..what to do..what should i convince them hah?
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@ 10:20 PM
ThinG have turned out to be reallie complicated..Since he sae to end it..i have no sae..i just dont understand him..in e ferst place y did he patch up things wit me?y? izzit to make me a fool or what?..nw he doesnt even make me hapi..and we quarrel abot stoopid stuff..whenever his mistakes he would blame me bck..he is so selfish..cant he just understand me..for however bad i am..aft we patch i dont even cntact with guys..but he!!he went out with that blady whore bt 4 times..n i just kept quiet about it..keeping e anger..e dissapointment..e sadness all to maself..doesnt he realise dat he have hurt me..if he really love me ..y mus he do tiz to me..when i sae are u reallie sure u wana end it..he sae give him tyme for break and ask me to take care of maself for e time being..y cnt he see his mistakes..y must it alwaes be me..have u ever think dat are u gud bf hah?how long u wana me to wait..hw long u wana me to be patient..if others gals i dun tink so they can be patient like me..they will confirm walked out frm u..if this wat u reallie want..i cnt do anitin..bt let me sae this..there is no turnin bck..i had enuf of relationship stuff...its up to u wheather u believe or trust dat i reallie do love u..if it is destined this way..i have to accept it..i dunwan becum afool..grieving matters over u..i have ma life..n y shoul i be like an idiot over u rite..itz nt e ferst time u did this to me..itz alot of time..but u still think ur rite..whatever k..if u still wana b stubborn ...den let it be..
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Wednesday, April 9 @ 11:03 PM
y do peoplE like to be a hypocrite..i admit sometimes i can too be hypocrite..due to certain reasons..but 4 a good purposes..whover it may concern..u doesnt noe that i noe ur a hypocrite to me..i juz kept quiet about it..u reallie disappoint me..juz hoping u will relise ur mistakes..im nt mad..juz come clean with me..be fair to me..cos im fair to u..if u dun like it jus say so..u doesnt nid to this..im so disspointed u have misuse ma trust..
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@ 10:53 PM
i kept on tinking n tinking...e sudden tot of it hurtz me most..b y did i still wana continue with tis?..Doesnt he have feelings at aLl..doesnt he carE..i feel like giving up lol..he never once thinks tat his words alwaes hurts me..he never..im alreadi kind enuf to give hym so many chances..but y cnt he realise dat..tis is wat he sae he loved me?hah?bullshit!!dun make me walked out frm u..frm there there will be no turnin bck..
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@ 12:03 AM
im tired of tis relationship..he seems to be blaming for ever n ever...whenever he make mistakes im e one hu is to blame..what is wrong if i gt blog..friendster or msn??its nt as if im playin bhd his back..i juz cnt take it animore..after wat he reallie did to me..he still dun realise..we onli patch up 4 3 weeks but he has gone out wit dat blady bitch 4 3 times..did i ever ask him dat i wanna go out wit guys?no..despite wat he has done..he still blames me..wat he did..i still kept quiet..still can be patient with himm..but he??he dun understand or appreciate tings at all..he kept on ctrlling wit ma life..padahal..i nvr play bhd his back..he only thinks for himself and onli tinks that he is rite..wtf!!u have nt been a gud bf at all..u did nat make me hepi or take gud care of me...ur alwaes bz..gt not itme 4 me..i had enf of this nonsenses...i leave it to fate and time to decide..i cnt be bother..i want to focus on ma studie rite nw!!
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Tuesday, April 8 @ 11:48 PM
Itz getting on my nerves..she is contradict tings..she wrote in her blog dat she wants shafiq to buzz out frm her life..buLlshit..if u realie wants it den y e hell did u still mit him on e 5th april at khatib hah..y?because u wana everybody to noe tat ur innoncent..ur nt at fault..padahal2..jgn nk mepek ar bual2..bual2 world..excuse me ur nt in ur own world bitch..u dun mean wat u sae..u wrote dat in blog to cover up 4 u..so that u pin point back at me..u reallie such a fuckin assholes..it takes two hand to clap..if u reallie wana him..by all means..u doesnt nid to denied at people..u still dunt realise ur mistakes hah?..u tink u are a hotstuff or wat?..please lar wake up!!...if u stop up to ma level den u tink abt arguing wit me...this reallie shows that YOU are reallie
DESPERADO!!!Desperate bitCh!!..go n get a lifE..like i told u so..karm gonna stab u at e back for wat u have done to me..ur attitude is worse than me..however bad i am..i wun go after someone bf..worse someone who is ur fren b4..bitch..go n do some self reflection...u wun gain anitin by doing this..u tink u can hurt me by doin this??..FAT HOPE!!Becos onli shafiq have a better look compared to ur other ex bf..so datz y ko terhegeh2 pat dier!!dun tink i kept quiet u cn step over ma head..dun make me losE ma patience..n u are goin to b sorrie..i will make sure ur life will nt b at ease...mark ma word..im nt someone who u tink u cn easily get back or hurt!!...idiotic blady whoRe!! |
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Monday, April 7 @ 5:15 AM
sometimes i wonder y pple like to two faced with me..im tired of people lying to me n betraying me..wat did i ever did ?if ur nt hapi n u do not like me..juz be frank with me..u dun nid to hide tings frm me..rite..all i wat is u people to be truthful to me..i had enuf of backstabbers...i trat u nice..do treat me too..
aniwae im totally mad at shafiq..hes alwaes bz with his work..he gt no time 4 me..haish...im totally fed up..might as well i stay single rather den having a bf rite..nevertheless..ma gf will alwaes make ma dae..i juz loved them to bits.. |
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@ 5:09 AM
ystd was fun..itz ma sis bdae party at bbq pitt...ma hunnie was dere.masha.. n raudha...i simply enjoy every moments i spend wit them..they are like ma precious pearlS..aniwae happy 19th bdae to ma kakak..e party was well done..bt im super duper tired..have to help ma mm a lot sia...meet all ma sis fwens..they are fun sia..i had to lyn e kids do balloon..haha...paling best ma sisgt give me her bdae presents too hee..all e partying..makes me so damn tired ..i did nt go to skul e nxt dae..hehe...aniwae shafiq n aminah cnot make it...wat a miss...cnt spend time wit dem..
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Tuesday, April 1 @ 2:24 AM
isH..ish..ish..like Eeewww..some people just dun realise their mistakes..they think that they are innoncent flower while trying to say nw im a bad one...haha..please lar..whatever u do..whatever u sae..people wiLl still noe da ur e one who is wrong n ur e one who is e bitchy one rite nw..so dun deny..n ge ur facts rite okae missy...ermm..well for least..im nt like u a backstabber..ermm..a bitch..worse still a whore who steal other people boifwen..no matter hw bad i am..im nt a slut who ruined people relationship..im nt a backstabber..unlike u..if u cn do it to me..im reallie sure dat u cn do at others..so people listen up..be wary of her!!haha..a relationship breaker!!..u are onli contradict tings..dun deny it okae..take a look at past entry of blog.."time will tell".."time will decide".."how i love and miss him so. i'm still waiting. time will tell. for now, i should keep on telling myself to be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient" what e hell is tiz if u sae that u are nt waiting for him..im nt stoopid k..u are onli trying to tell people dat ur to be blame n ur innoncent..padahal..padahal..nk deny things konon..hw bt tiz"i'm going to wait and wait for him"..wanting to deny that ure nt stopid to wait 4 him..haha..i noe a lot ok..so dun deny..who is the one who called him..crying...is u!!wen im with him..if u realie want shafiq to buzz off ur life or maybe ur trying to sae u hate shafiq nw?den y e hell u still insists on going out with him or pick up his calls?this is so nt logic..if u realiie wana him to buzz of frm ur life den..u will nt insist on meeting him rite?..n still wana him to keep his promises to him..dun lie lar..u cnt hide ur feelings..yes i admit dat i did msg him wen ur together..but he is e one who kol me to solved ur prob with u..idiot!!..after tat i dun even msg him..n e last msg was ma wish of anniversary to him..even if i do that pun..by rite itz nt ma fault ...cos in e ferst place whos e bitchy one rite nw..me buzz out frm ur life?tk tahu malunye!!u tink i gt nothing to do to mess up with ur life..waste ma blady time doing something like that which is nt worth it..itz YOU who buzz off frm ma life!!Get that inside ur head!!For ur inFo ..wen u with hym.i alreadi move on after three wks..bt den since he sae he wants me back..wat to do lar kan..accept je lar..haish kecianye!!he leave u for me!..haha..nxt tyme dun ever2 try to break people relaionship..okae..heed ma advice..lol..haha..watever lar bitch..say wat u want..i dun give a damn about it..!!im happy wit ma life..so juz BERAMBUS!!...itz nt worth a single cent of arguing with a bitch who is nt step up to ma level..bt tanks to her a lot lar..i have to sae..i will be careful of choosing friends who is like her!..a biTch + WhoRe..maybe worse than dat..go n repent okae n realisE ur blady mistakes n change your fuckin attitude..tiz is ma last entry bt u!!Dah mls Sak ako ...ngan ko!!so BYE BITCH!!HAVE A BITCHY YEARS AHEAD!!
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Tuesday, April 29 @ 11:17 PM
people saY..that liFe may be beautiFul as it is..but do they know how to make it beautifUl..
liFe for me once is beautiFul..bt nw..theRes no colours to ma liFe.. it is juz an emptineSs.. Dullness.. ThouGh i may saE dat im hEpi..bt do i? Do i even noe hw to make ma life colourful once more.. N brighten it up with much more..meaningful thinGs,, |
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@ 10:55 PM
okehh..toadae ma hunnie has an audition for hip hop crew at her skul..well i reallie hope she cn make it lar seii..yea she must..lol..poor cyg...hee..lol..i am so damn tired..todae..well..after wat she msg me..e memory which i longed wanting to leave bhd..came back..shit!!..sickening..cnt dey juz buzz off..i trying to make maself happy here lol...
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@ 10:46 PM
ystd she msg me..tellin me dat sahafiq told her he was kinda worried for me..n scared that i might ruined ma life..wat e hell??..nonsenses..watever k..jgn nk step maner nye concern bleh tk..pleash lar..i doesnt nid ur concern..u have alreadi hurt me still wana step maner nye baek....Juz Buzz off ok..to me ur both are dead..i dun cr bt u both...get a lifE alRite..it reminds me of ma pain..deRr..
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Monday, April 28 @ 12:34 AM
OK im Damn BorED..haisH..y do guys juz easilY say dat they like someonE..whereelsE..they juz getn to noe dat person..i mean izit realiee sincere or juz catch no balls..h...or they juz sae that itz fallin in love at the first sight..is dere such thing?cos i dun believe in them animore..is all bullshit..perhaps maybe someone reallie know how to taech me waht love it is ..n jus swEet woRds..which doesnt mean anitinG..cos by doin so..u gain nothinG..but hurting morE people..my past has brought me to be like this..i have changed..ma perspective has changEd..people hope u understanD..
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Sunday, April 27 @ 7:15 AM
ystd i met up with khai..firman n ammar..e bpys frm south view primary..lol i mish them lar shey..mit them at one of e gals birthday party hee..i cnt wait to go escape theme park with dem..lol..they are shoo cute..
aniwae..todae was supposedly to be ma anniversary of me n hym..it will be about one yr nine mths..i mish hym..he..muz be hapy with her nw..i wonder if he ever gt tink of me..on tiz dae..we alwaes went out n celebrate..haish..itz all in e past nw..aniwae..life for me quite stress..im afraid i cnt cope with ma studies..im trying..trying to beat dat bitch point..lol |
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Wednesday, April 23 @ 11:42 PM
The very thought of u..
anD i forget to do.. e little ordinary thinGs that everyone ought to do I sEe ur Face EverywHere.. your eyes in stars above.. itz just the thought of u.. the very thought of u.. |
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@ 12:36 AM
Sometimes..i just wonder..wat has happen to me..izzit because due to a certain reasons..that served a purposes..
Did everytin happen has a reason.. it hard 4 me to accept..but i try.. MaYbe..e ans will cum later..i dunno..bt i hope everyting happen..good things will cum in retuRn.. Should i wait for him..or should i nt?? Perhaps maybe.. |
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@ 12:30 AM
Everydae for me is so boring..
its e repeated schedule dat i have been doing lol.. so bz..i dun even have time for maself.. and wait..for another two wks..i have to stay at hm..like derr..damn bored sia.. haish..have to study fot this upcuming test..lol.. i mus sae..i mish hangin out wit ma hunnie ma love..mas n aminah..hee..cnt wait to go out with dem lol..in two wks time..so long sia... hee..aniwae itz bveen a long time since i have nt hangout with ma another dearest..raudha..hee..nvm..gonna text her..n mit up with her soon..lol.. |
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@ 12:18 AM
sometimes u cannot believe what u see..
u have to believe what u feel.. and if u are ever going to have other people trust u.. u must feel that u can trust them too.. even when youre in e dark.. even when youre falling.. |
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Monday, April 21 @ 1:09 AM
To Alin..Tanks 4 ur AdviSe..i wrote bt heR coS im DissapoinTed n Regret oF havinG her As ma Fwen b4..Who miGth noeS e peRson whoM i CallEd frienDs..Stab me at thE baCk..TeLl ya E truTh..i Did hatE her B4..Bt i havE foRgivEn heR..MAybE nw She Didnt reaLisE what shE has Did To me As heR frEn..IF eveR a dAe sHe realisE dat..I wElComEd heR baCk As a fRieNd..BuT itU pun Kalo She Feel GuilT abouT wat shE has Done..All Tiz WhilE she nvR apoloGisE..She is SelFish..anD shE neveR thinK..For 5 YrS i havE bEen WaiTinG foR hym..She noes iT..Bt shE simplY juS iGnoRe..is daT wat u CaLleD a fRen..Im nT an anGeL..I cnT toleraTe..I do havE feElinG..anD itz nT onCe..Itz tWiCe...ShE stIll besAr kepalE..She Tinks She Wins alReaDi...IF aS a FreN She noEs dAT im wIt Hym..E basIc thInG sHe wiLl Do is Nt To menGaTal Wit hYm..n IT doeSnt maTteR iF i Lo sE aFren likE heR..FoR ShaFiQ..itZ haRd 4 me..5 yrs is nt a ShoRt time minD u..i have BeeN WaiTinG 4 Hym SinCe Sec onE..imaGinE..Nw It tUrN out Diz waE..i nvR asK much..Nor AskinG or hoPing..Their RelationShip wiLl enD sOoN..im Nt.. I juz hope foR e daE wheRe they Jus noE hw muCh huR n paIn..They has brouGht mE..I juz wan Them to Go through it like Hw i Do..meAninG..wat goEs ar d CumS ard...I noe it
Z ma majoR yr..imTryinG ma beSt to ConcentraTe...TEll ya e tRuth ..i stIll have hopE oF waiTinG fOR hym..CoS i Juz hopIng hE wIll Come baCk an dRealisE hw muCh i reAlliE lovE hym..i noE itz imppoSibLe..Bt i juZ waiT..n Wait..TiLl everI daE..WheRe..someonE elsE cn open up ma hart..ya ma fwen is Alwaes dErE 4 me..i treAsuRe dem loTz..n Lovve TheM lotz..Tanks 4 uR adviSe aniwaE..MuCh appreciaTed.. |
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@ 1:09 AM
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Saturday, April 19 @ 7:33 AM
What makes her so muCh better den me
wat makes her so much dat i could nvr be.. wat makes her so much..dat she is everytin.. wat her so much dat u fantasize her.. wat makes her so much dat shes amazed u.. wat makes her so much in everytin... |
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@ 6:49 AM
weLl todaE was supposedly i go melaca with ma mummie..bt den..she juz left me..like derr..she never wake me up lol...nw im staying at home..so bored sia..juz do ma hwk n studying lol..wen am i goin to finish ma o level!!
SiTtin dwn in ma bed..alone..i kept rmbering e memories dat i had with hym..e photos which i still kept..e present..n most imptantly e ring.. i still cnt bear to take it off i have been wearing it for like one yr plus.. haish..it so hurtful..i cn rmb all those memories vividly.. y muz it turn out diz wae... hw i wish i culd juz erase all these memories... we break..was nt ma fault..i didnt do anitin wrung at all sometimes i just wonder whether i should juz wait for hym or to move on... i tink i juz wait..till e dae where someone else cn open ma heart again.. i be waiting till i given up.. i neo it may b stoopid..i juz leave it to fate... |
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Friday, April 18 @ 7:48 AM
Shafiq2 Stop it with ur swit mother fucker word !!wen i read backe msg dat u sent..it was all bullshit!!JUz admit lar u reallie such a jerk!!wun erase me frm ur mind??dun spoil a life??im alwaes appear in ur mind??wuri bt me??dat i wun take care of maself..dun 4get u??cut dwn on guys..plesh lar..all tiz bullshit..asshole!!u cn jolly go n wuri bt ur blady bitch..im goin to forget u like hell n itz ma life..u doesnt nid to bother on hw mani guys i wana noe..dammit..jgn nk step manernye concern..i will wait for time..wen everything gona change..where i fell dat ma hurt..pain n suffer da di balas..!!i will.. n i will..it may ny be nw..bt i will cum..u wun be easily running away frm dat..trust me!!
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@ 7:25 AM
FIRSTLY I WANA SAY..TO THE BITCH BY E NAMED OF NADIA IDROS... BUZZ OFF N STOP READING N SNOOPING WITH MA BLOG.. DUN BE IRRITATIN..WAT MORE U WANT..DA DPT TU JERK KAN.. DEN CAN JOLLY WELL BERAMBUS OKEHH!!!!SICKENING PEOPLE!! MAKE LIFE DIFFICULT FOR PEOPLE!!I DUN WANA NOE ABT A SHITT BT U BOTH !!..TO HELL..DAH LAH BUAL2 WORLD..STEP TK UKE SHAFIQ KONON..DATZ Y DELETE UR BLOG WRITE TO GET RID OF EVIDENCE..PRANGAI CM DOG!! |
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Thursday, April 17 @ 12:05 AM
ok..to the people comment me at ma blog..tanks a lot for advise..i appreciate it lotz lar seii..it takes time for me..but i try..i will..n move on with ma love..tanks to e people who are concern for me..love u guys a lotz lar seii..im trying nto forget the memories...n everytin..
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Wednesday, April 16 @ 11:48 PM
Tuesdae was great...we mit up with apian n nashy boi..huh..juz get to noe dem..serious speakin..dey ar funni lar sei..a good peeps to hang ard with..makin ma day..well for e least i did nt think bout him wen i was with dem..hee..juz hangin out n lepak till 6 aft dat .we ahead back hm..
wEdnesdae mit up wit ma hunie..mas..as usual..we go library and tok about life..huhu..tokin to her make me relieve..cos shes e onli one and others who understand me..tanks bebeh..for being dere 4 me all thiz while..i love u to e max..seii.. at nite shafiq called he sae hes stress up n he told me he quit skul alreadi..like wtf..y e hell did he quit?whatz gona becum of him..if he doesnt have education at all!!hw stoopid culd he be without thorough tinking bt his decision!!haish..hes dissapointing me and his mum..n he told me his mish tokin to me n wana hear ma voice...i dun noe wat to sae..let hym be.. |
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Tuesday, April 15 @ 12:02 AM
peOplE kept tellin to move on..n i will finD a betteR person..
i noE dat..but it just too painFul too move on cos i kept remberinG thosE memories..wheather they are e happy moments or even e painful moments.. y muz this kept happening to me..y. isnt it strange dat i love him a lot..despite watever he did to me or even he doesnt make me hepi..i still keep wantinG to be with hymm..people can call me craziee or stopid but i duno y..i maself doesnt even noe hw to explain about it.. All e more i kept yearning for hym..but all e more im getting maself hurt.. i juz wonder what his motive of patching up things with me..what does he gain by doin this..by hurting is what he desire most..i admit he was a jerk..n sorry for all he could say... i dunno wheather i should juz hate him or nt..e pain still doesnt go away..itz nt once he did to me..itz a lot of times..y cnt he treasure our relationship.. y cnt he appreciate ma sacrifices.. Cmon amiRah WAKE UP n face E REALITY..UR stRONG!!..U can do iT..Dun bcos of him u suFfer in silence..move on ..move on..hes nt worth it...deres someone better..he for sure will regret wat he did to u..for sure..n dat bitch ..bat things will befall her..rmb..every bad deed will be paid...datz e dae i will be waiting for...u hurt me enuf..u both..n im sure..u guys will fell hw i feel one dae..4 sure..i may lose nw..bt nt in e future...e bitch still doesnt realise her mistakes.. |
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Monday, April 14 @ 11:50 PM
A FRiends is more than someone who wipes
your tears when u are sad.. they are more than person u called When someone u incredibly mad A true friend does not have to be a person u spend every weekend or even someone who lives just ard e bend A friend Can be with whom u shared a single moment but u felt like it was just 4 u they were sent friendship does not always have to build up over years it is like love..sometimes just appears So always rmb that each person u meet has this potential to be someone Especially interesting and neat try nt to judge those who dont seen ur' 'type'' because their personality may fit just right and always treasure ur friends do not ever be selfish a Friend inneed is a freind indeed |
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Sunday, April 13 @ 1:54 AM
thinking of e things that has hpn to me recently..reallie hurt me..shafiq..y ae u treating me like diz..am i nt gud enuf 4 u?..we have been together for quite a long time..and i have known u for so long..dont u ever believe or trust dat ma feelings 4 u is real..or else y should i bother to accept u back..i like u since sec 1 ..look..itz been 5 yrs..mind u..5 yrs..itz nt dat short period..hw cul u realie did this to me..wen u go to dat bitch..do u noe hw much u have hurt me..u reliee hurt me deeply..despite that..i still could accept u bck wen u sae u wana patch things p with me..i tot u wuld cange n appreciate me..bt udidnt..u kept hurtin me n ctrllin ma life..u kept lying to me n never once u tried to make me hepi..dun u ever appreciate me..y are u doin this..havent u hurt me enuf..i dun realiee understand u..n are u goin to realise it huh..if ut ink by ending it itz e best way..den it will be..but watever it is i did noting wrung to u..itz u hu mke a lot of mistakes to me..all e best to u i ur life..
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@ 12:53 AM
ystd was such a wrecked day 4 me..haish..it reallie ruined ma mood..aniwae..it was quite super duper fun hangin out with ma cyg mas and aminah..aniwae ma skul band gt silver 4 syf..i pity them..and i was shocked dat they gt silver..frm wat i tink..they realiiee..put in alot of effort n work hard 4 it..nvm..there will alwaes be e nxt tyme...aniwae nxt sat i cant go out..lol..o level yr mah..haish so bored..i can onli go out alternate wks.school was quite stressful 4 me..i hpe i could make it through and make it to poly...
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Thursday, April 10 @ 10:33 PM
well..yst sha kol me n ask wheather i wana join them for e dance com..well i loved it..bt theres a hindrance for me..i have to ask ma parents permission lo..sigh..itz ma o level yr and they are very strict wit me..lol..dancing is reallie ma passion n hobby..i badly reallie wana join with mas as well..haish..what to do..what should i convince them hah?
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@ 10:20 PM
ThinG have turned out to be reallie complicated..Since he sae to end it..i have no sae..i just dont understand him..in e ferst place y did he patch up things wit me?y? izzit to make me a fool or what?..nw he doesnt even make me hapi..and we quarrel abot stoopid stuff..whenever his mistakes he would blame me bck..he is so selfish..cant he just understand me..for however bad i am..aft we patch i dont even cntact with guys..but he!!he went out with that blady whore bt 4 times..n i just kept quiet about it..keeping e anger..e dissapointment..e sadness all to maself..doesnt he realise dat he have hurt me..if he really love me ..y mus he do tiz to me..when i sae are u reallie sure u wana end it..he sae give him tyme for break and ask me to take care of maself for e time being..y cnt he see his mistakes..y must it alwaes be me..have u ever think dat are u gud bf hah?how long u wana me to wait..hw long u wana me to be patient..if others gals i dun tink so they can be patient like me..they will confirm walked out frm u..if this wat u reallie want..i cnt do anitin..bt let me sae this..there is no turnin bck..i had enuf of relationship stuff...its up to u wheather u believe or trust dat i reallie do love u..if it is destined this way..i have to accept it..i dunwan becum afool..grieving matters over u..i have ma life..n y shoul i be like an idiot over u rite..itz nt e ferst time u did this to me..itz alot of time..but u still think ur rite..whatever k..if u still wana b stubborn ...den let it be..
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Wednesday, April 9 @ 11:03 PM
y do peoplE like to be a hypocrite..i admit sometimes i can too be hypocrite..due to certain reasons..but 4 a good purposes..whover it may concern..u doesnt noe that i noe ur a hypocrite to me..i juz kept quiet about it..u reallie disappoint me..juz hoping u will relise ur mistakes..im nt mad..juz come clean with me..be fair to me..cos im fair to u..if u dun like it jus say so..u doesnt nid to this..im so disspointed u have misuse ma trust..
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@ 10:53 PM
i kept on tinking n tinking...e sudden tot of it hurtz me most..b y did i still wana continue with tis?..Doesnt he have feelings at aLl..doesnt he carE..i feel like giving up lol..he never once thinks tat his words alwaes hurts me..he never..im alreadi kind enuf to give hym so many chances..but y cnt he realise dat..tis is wat he sae he loved me?hah?bullshit!!dun make me walked out frm u..frm there there will be no turnin bck..
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@ 12:03 AM
im tired of tis relationship..he seems to be blaming for ever n ever...whenever he make mistakes im e one hu is to blame..what is wrong if i gt blog..friendster or msn??its nt as if im playin bhd his back..i juz cnt take it animore..after wat he reallie did to me..he still dun realise..we onli patch up 4 3 weeks but he has gone out wit dat blady bitch 4 3 times..did i ever ask him dat i wanna go out wit guys?no..despite wat he has done..he still blames me..wat he did..i still kept quiet..still can be patient with himm..but he??he dun understand or appreciate tings at all..he kept on ctrlling wit ma life..padahal..i nvr play bhd his back..he only thinks for himself and onli tinks that he is rite..wtf!!u have nt been a gud bf at all..u did nat make me hepi or take gud care of me...ur alwaes bz..gt not itme 4 me..i had enf of this nonsenses...i leave it to fate and time to decide..i cnt be bother..i want to focus on ma studie rite nw!!
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Tuesday, April 8 @ 11:48 PM
Itz getting on my nerves..she is contradict tings..she wrote in her blog dat she wants shafiq to buzz out frm her life..buLlshit..if u realie wants it den y e hell did u still mit him on e 5th april at khatib hah..y?because u wana everybody to noe tat ur innoncent..ur nt at fault..padahal2..jgn nk mepek ar bual2..bual2 world..excuse me ur nt in ur own world bitch..u dun mean wat u sae..u wrote dat in blog to cover up 4 u..so that u pin point back at me..u reallie such a fuckin assholes..it takes two hand to clap..if u reallie wana him..by all means..u doesnt nid to denied at people..u still dunt realise ur mistakes hah?..u tink u are a hotstuff or wat?..please lar wake up!!...if u stop up to ma level den u tink abt arguing wit me...this reallie shows that YOU are reallie
DESPERADO!!!Desperate bitCh!!..go n get a lifE..like i told u so..karm gonna stab u at e back for wat u have done to me..ur attitude is worse than me..however bad i am..i wun go after someone bf..worse someone who is ur fren b4..bitch..go n do some self reflection...u wun gain anitin by doing this..u tink u can hurt me by doin this??..FAT HOPE!!Becos onli shafiq have a better look compared to ur other ex bf..so datz y ko terhegeh2 pat dier!!dun tink i kept quiet u cn step over ma head..dun make me losE ma patience..n u are goin to b sorrie..i will make sure ur life will nt b at ease...mark ma word..im nt someone who u tink u cn easily get back or hurt!!...idiotic blady whoRe!! |
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Monday, April 7 @ 5:15 AM
sometimes i wonder y pple like to two faced with me..im tired of people lying to me n betraying me..wat did i ever did ?if ur nt hapi n u do not like me..juz be frank with me..u dun nid to hide tings frm me..rite..all i wat is u people to be truthful to me..i had enuf of backstabbers...i trat u nice..do treat me too..
aniwae im totally mad at shafiq..hes alwaes bz with his work..he gt no time 4 me..haish...im totally fed up..might as well i stay single rather den having a bf rite..nevertheless..ma gf will alwaes make ma dae..i juz loved them to bits.. |
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@ 5:09 AM
ystd was fun..itz ma sis bdae party at bbq pitt...ma hunnie was dere.masha.. n raudha...i simply enjoy every moments i spend wit them..they are like ma precious pearlS..aniwae happy 19th bdae to ma kakak..e party was well done..bt im super duper tired..have to help ma mm a lot sia...meet all ma sis fwens..they are fun sia..i had to lyn e kids do balloon..haha...paling best ma sisgt give me her bdae presents too hee..all e partying..makes me so damn tired ..i did nt go to skul e nxt dae..hehe...aniwae shafiq n aminah cnot make it...wat a miss...cnt spend time wit dem..
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Tuesday, April 1 @ 2:24 AM
isH..ish..ish..like Eeewww..some people just dun realise their mistakes..they think that they are innoncent flower while trying to say nw im a bad one...haha..please lar..whatever u do..whatever u sae..people wiLl still noe da ur e one who is wrong n ur e one who is e bitchy one rite nw..so dun deny..n ge ur facts rite okae missy...ermm..well for least..im nt like u a backstabber..ermm..a bitch..worse still a whore who steal other people boifwen..no matter hw bad i am..im nt a slut who ruined people relationship..im nt a backstabber..unlike u..if u cn do it to me..im reallie sure dat u cn do at others..so people listen up..be wary of her!!haha..a relationship breaker!!..u are onli contradict tings..dun deny it okae..take a look at past entry of blog.."time will tell".."time will decide".."how i love and miss him so. i'm still waiting. time will tell. for now, i should keep on telling myself to be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient. be patient" what e hell is tiz if u sae that u are nt waiting for him..im nt stoopid k..u are onli trying to tell people dat ur to be blame n ur innoncent..padahal..padahal..nk deny things konon..hw bt tiz"i'm going to wait and wait for him"..wanting to deny that ure nt stopid to wait 4 him..haha..i noe a lot ok..so dun deny..who is the one who called him..crying...is u!!wen im with him..if u realie want shafiq to buzz off ur life or maybe ur trying to sae u hate shafiq nw?den y e hell u still insists on going out with him or pick up his calls?this is so nt logic..if u realiie wana him to buzz of frm ur life den..u will nt insist on meeting him rite?..n still wana him to keep his promises to him..dun lie lar..u cnt hide ur feelings..yes i admit dat i did msg him wen ur together..but he is e one who kol me to solved ur prob with u..idiot!!..after tat i dun even msg him..n e last msg was ma wish of anniversary to him..even if i do that pun..by rite itz nt ma fault ...cos in e ferst place whos e bitchy one rite nw..me buzz out frm ur life?tk tahu malunye!!u tink i gt nothing to do to mess up with ur life..waste ma blady time doing something like that which is nt worth it..itz YOU who buzz off frm ma life!!Get that inside ur head!!For ur inFo ..wen u with hym.i alreadi move on after three wks..bt den since he sae he wants me back..wat to do lar kan..accept je lar..haish kecianye!!he leave u for me!..haha..nxt tyme dun ever2 try to break people relaionship..okae..heed ma advice..lol..haha..watever lar bitch..say wat u want..i dun give a damn about it..!!im happy wit ma life..so juz BERAMBUS!!...itz nt worth a single cent of arguing with a bitch who is nt step up to ma level..bt tanks to her a lot lar..i have to sae..i will be careful of choosing friends who is like her!..a biTch + WhoRe..maybe worse than dat..go n repent okae n realisE ur blady mistakes n change your fuckin attitude..tiz is ma last entry bt u!!Dah mls Sak ako ...ngan ko!!so BYE BITCH!!HAVE A BITCHY YEARS AHEAD!!
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