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Monday, January 21 @ 3:07 AM
Shafiq confessed to me...he sae dat he has go out wit her..so all this while he has been lying to me!!..All this while my instinct was right...This is wat god wants me to know..wants me to see...i cant believe it..y must it be her!!y cant it b other girls!!...y?y?..y must it be with someone whom i know..Now hes blaming for everything...He blames me!!hw could him!!...The pain in my heart will 4 sure remains.PEOPLE MAY LOOK INNOCENT BUT ACTUALLY THEY ARE WOLF IN SHEEP CLOTHING...After what they did..Sorry was all they could say!!In e first place she knows dat im wit him..y must she makes me distrust her..ya everyone makes a mistakes..But should i forgive them??Do they deserved that?They really such a bitching thing that really happened in my life.Y didnt everyone tel me in e first place??Now what should i do?Must i keep quiet and just be domb about it?How would u feel if someone who u treat like your own gud friends..Did this to u..I dont care if she take me as a friend or nt..But it is really fucking shit!!..y wen i am gud and nice people treat me lyke this?Must i be bad and bitchy..so that they wun do diz to me?What have i done wrong?that they must treat me lyke diz?it really teach me nt to trust pple..Friends are a lot but u hardly get ones whom you can trust n depend...
But for me it teach me hw to judge pple nw.. damn it!!..i try nt to tink bt it anymore..but it just kept on disturbing ma mind..I nid peace..i nid it badly..it hurts me..hurts me a lot..How can i juz forget about it easily?i feel lyke running away frm everyone..i dun noe what to do?im fucking stress!!peopple know me as a cheerful person..i tried to hide problems frm them..they didnt know dat i am in miserable..Should i juz forgive them? im confused..i juz doesnt know when thiz hatred n pain will go away..i swear i wun find a friend with her name..it mades me opens up to judge people..Should i be more mean and cunning so that i will be treated like what it should be?how about i try and did dat to her..she like it!!!Ya rite!!fuck with their words!! and apologies..Moment of folly my foot!!arh!!it disgusts me!!..I never been so mad and hate people in ma whole entire life..even e bitches whom i hate is not worse than them..Trying to talk to me...you think dat wil settle e prob?hah!and take it dat nothing happen?Bullshit!!.. Nvm..Maybe rit nw..they are juz laughing at me..nvm..what goes around comes around!!!...i believe in dat!!Dont mess wit me or i wil get into ur bitching life...wen im gud..u better treat me nice...now hes telling me bullshit things that he still loves me and hes onli having fun.FUCK U!!!he wants to start anew...is that simple? i lost a lot of friends and did a lot of things just for him...this is what i get??when i didnt flirt with guys ..u never see..but wen i did u blame me badly..Someone please give me peace...i nid to think..i dunno what to do..All i want is sincerity..How do u expect me to believe him anymore?..in e first place if he dosent like me..he can jolly well tell me...i doesnt nid to waste my blady time dedicated to him... ya pple think im hepi bt im nt!!..y are u guys so mean..y are u ruining ma happiness..ma life!!..i di not messed up with ur life..y must they messed up mine?..im lost!!aargh!!it freaking me out...Now den she realised her mistakes..ITZ TOO LATE MISSY!!!...things cant change e way it seems... TO THIS PERSON...I TRUST YOU A LOT AND EVEN TREAT U LIKE MA GOOD PALS... I CANT BELIEVE IT ...HOW DECEIVING YOU ARE...YOU KNOW HOW PAINFUL IT IS!!!IT IS MUCH MORE PAINFUL THAN THOSE BITCHES HURT ME...I HOPE U GET WAT I MEAN!!IF EVER A DAY IN UR LYFE IN A RELATIONSHIP AND SOMETHING LYKE THIS WERE TO HAPPEN..RMB U DID THIS TO ME AND IT TURNS TO U BACK TO U..DUN WURI I WUN HATE U..THANKS A LOTZ $ WAT HAS HPN..U RUIN IT!!...IM NT DAT BAD TO REVEAL UR IDENTITY..COS I STIL RESPECT PEOPLE REPUTATION...LUCKY 4 U...U HAVE BECUM MA FWEN FOR ONCE..IF NOT I DUNNO WHAT WILL I DO TO U... |
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