Love. desire. lust.

peOplE kept tellin to move on..n i will finD a betteR person..
i noE dat..but it just too painFul too move on
cos i kept remberinG thosE memories..wheather they are e happy moments or even e painful moments..

y muz this kept happening to me..y.
isnt it strange dat i love him a lot..despite watever he did to me or even he doesnt make me hepi..i still keep wantinG to be with hymm..people can call me craziee or stopid but i duno y..i maself doesnt even noe hw to explain about it..
All e more i kept yearning for hym..but all e more im getting maself hurt..

i juz wonder what his motive of patching up things with me..what does he gain by doin this..by hurting is what he desire most..i admit he was a jerk..n sorry for all he could say...

i dunno wheather i should juz hate him or nt..e pain still doesnt go away..itz nt once he did to me..itz a lot of times..y cnt he treasure our relationship..
y cnt he appreciate ma sacrifices..

Cmon amiRah WAKE UP n face E REALITY..UR stRONG!!..U can do iT..Dun bcos of him u suFfer in silence..move on ..move on..hes nt worth it...deres someone better..he for sure will regret wat he did to u..for sure..n dat bitch ..bat things will befall her..rmb..every bad deed will be paid...datz e dae i will be waiting for...u hurt me enuf..u both..n im sure..u guys will fell hw i feel one dae..4 sure..i may lose nw..bt nt in e future...e bitch still doesnt realise her mistakes..

Hello, ummu amirah here.