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Thursday, June 5 @ 12:05 PM
todae was supposed to go pulau ubin..
but in e end tk jady..bcos of ma parents..dammit..im freakin fed up...hw i wish i culd jus ran away frm hm...i cnt stand being at hm...i did nt asked to be born in this world..if i noe dat iwas goin through a difficult life...i rather b dead..y cnt dey understand me??..im tryin ma best to b a good n filial daughter...i am...but their words are abusive and it hurting me..their words realli left a deep impact on me..u know hw hurt i am..hw cn u as ma parents say so hurtful words to me..im nt trying to be rude to dem..or make dem mad at me...but they make me becum like this...i noe i may not b a perfect daughter...but this is me...y cnt u accept me ur daughter...if i really trouble u guys...then y e hell did u guys brought me up..as i write diz dwn..i cnt stop crying..and crying..do u noe dat i alwaes cry in silence..mum ..dad im nt trying to b rude..i alwaes loved u guys...n its nt ma intention to make u guys mad at me...bt for once listen and understand me...im nt like other kids who smoke , drink n dun have pride...i noe hw to tc of maself and nt ruining ma life...or family name...bt i hate being compared wit others...have u ever ask wat i have kept in ma heart for so long..i dun even mixed with bad company... im nt dat easily influenced person...wat i need is ur moral support not critising me...ur ma parent...bt u sae to me..hw am i supposed juz to forget dat..e words kept echoeing through ma mind..im hurt..all i nid is freedom n understanding...i noe tiz is ma o level yr...im tryin ma best to work hard...and make u guys proud of me...i wun disappoint u guys...no matter hw e words hurt me..i still love u guys as ma parents...hw i wish one day u both will understand e pain, e harsh words..im human being i have feelins..luckily bf of mine cheer me up...hee love u cyg.. |
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