well just now was superb fun spending with ma lovely gf.
though it was short.
but it is enjoyable..
other than dat we get to take pictures with this two hot beautiful american babes.
Damn im so envy of them.
e day was end with lovely small mini "makan"with dem.
Nana as usual was late.
i think we should enforced some rules here 4 e late comer.hee..
aft that we went for prom dress hunting.
phew it was tiring but was enjoyable with our jokes n gossiping.
no matter hw bad or good ma lovely gf character are.or whoever simply dislike them ..i dun care.i noe them for 5 yrs.n i noe them inside outt.so people who wanna condemm about them ..go ahead.make sure i dun heard it.or i swear im gonna shove ma hand to ur ass!..

i cant wait for prom again n our class gathering..oh ya i will be making ma belated bdae party on e 30th now..
whee..my mum insist that i should do one n make it sweet seventeen for me..
awww...when it comes to this..my mum is e greatest angel in e world.n i love my mum..
shes e best mum afterall..
aniway i will be having headache right now in making decision whom should i go out with for ma birthday..pretty exciting..but at e same time..hmmph..difficult for me to make my decision.

i was supposed to mett ma dear bestie nash.but i aologize as i was not able to make it.i promised i make time for u okehh.one paper left for me to go.yea..aft dat i get my freedom n enjoy to ma heart content plus i will be also working to make myself busy besides hanging out with may friends.

aft dat i met my bf..i guess i must say dat my feelings for him has fade away.i just dont noe whatz e reason behind it.
after our patch up.i tried to make things better for us especially me..
ikept tellin myself that i should able to love him e fullest of ma heart once more.
but i guess i was wronged.
im contradict things.
it is juz so hard forget e past.ya people have been telling me to forgive n forget.
but have they put themself into ma shoes ?have they?its easier say than done.e one who go through..e one who feel e pain n bear e sufferings is me.n can it make up e time that i have wasted so far cos all these things that has happened is a nightmare to me.can it make up e time which i have wasten n regretted for not studying that well just because of e things that has happened before.if only it didnt happened i guess my results are good n i will not be struggling e past few mths for making it to ma o level.thanks a lot for e pple who have hurt me.if u be me do u tink u will ever be able to forget?the things that happened was recently this year .it did not happened decades ago.thus e incident leave a bad scar to me n sometimes i just fear that ma best friend will betray me n sometimes i just think who is really ma true friends are?

do they mean what they say.will they be truthful to u?e incident is a barrier for me to love ma bf once more.is it because that im too vulnerable?too naive?or is it that i do not have a strong say for maself?
inoe its unfair.bf have tried his ways to make it up to me by sacrificing a lots of things for me..n pampering me with what i want.but it still doesnt make up e feelings.i tried n i tried.but i cant.must i sacrifice ma feelings just to see e other party happyn make sure that i dun hurt hym?or should i just follow my heart?
sometimes bf attitude are too absurb.he is afraid to lose me but yet he cntrol me like hell!inid a space to breathe .i nid time too for ma frens.cos eversince u unfaithful to me n cheated me.i dun tink so i can ever listen to u like before.it is just so hard to move on after what he has done.haish.y am i being like this?


hw i wish if only it didnt happen it wouldnt turned out this way..